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Trying to keep my sparkle…

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Kinky Poly has no idea how much she made my day awarding me the Shine On award! I’ve been having kind of a rough week, and after someone insulted my blog and writing skills, when I was making a comment elsewhere, I’ve been kind of reluctant to try and type. So thank you, thank you, for not only giving me an incentive to write something but making me feel better and reminding me that I do have a bunch of wonderful followers! The awards I’ve received say there are people out there who DO enjoy reading and I don’t want to let the haters bring me down!

Screw them all! Or rather, don’t, because they clearly have issues with a woman enjoying her sex life and writing about it, so screwing them is probably a bad idea, lol.

Anyhow, let me give you all an update of what is going on in my life, before I get to the questions, because it’s got me in a depressed kind of mood that may shine through in my writing. 😦 I’m also due for my period and that really tends to affect me emotionally. I swear sometimes I think I have PMDD (Pre-menstrual dysphoric disorder). It’s not so much irritability, though there is some of that, but falling into a depression each month. It’s to the point where I struggle to function normally and to keep suicidal thoughts out of my head. I know I’d never actually kill myself because of my kids but I just get to feeling so overwhelmed and hopeless that I don’t know what to do. It’s only once a month for a couple of days though, thankfully.

Hell, that’s something about me, so let’s consider it my first fact. Back to this past week. Well, I lost my Fuck Buddy. Totally unexpected but he got upset with me. He had wanted to see me one morning and when he texted I was really too exhausted to wake up and start getting ready. I’d been up all night the night before dealing with issues with my teenage son.

So that probably made him a little cranky with me to begin with. I had said maybe but ended up sleeping longer than planned and he had to go back to his town early. He asked for some pictures, since we weren’t meeting, and having not had a chance to get ready I asked if he wanted to see some of me with another guy. He said “sure” and I figured since our faces weren’t in it and he’s not emotionally attached AND he agreed to it, he would be okay with it all. Big mistake.

I sent him a couple pics. They are of me and the Producer but just show his cock going into my pussy, from behind, close up. I didn’t tell him WHO the pictures were of. Guys send me pics of themselves with women all the time, minus face, and often ask me for the same, so I’m thinking no big deal.

Well, he got PISSED because he saw the other guy wasn’t wearing a condom!! Sigh. HE wears one every single time and we’ve been fucking for over a year and he never asked me before if the other guys wear condoms or not. He was like, you are fucking raw now? I said not usually, but admitted I have and he said “well, I can’t fuck you. That’s a bit much”. I said the Professor never wore one with me and did he expect the married women he fucks with to wear condoms with their husbands and he said “no”. I was like well, I’m not sure how it affects you since you always wear one but okay, I guess I shouldn’t have sent the pics, have a nice life. Haven’t spoken with him since.

As if that wasn’t enough, I kind of cut things off completely with the Professor too. He came over here the other day, wanting to bring us some big floor pillow that he said he wasn’t using and he made me a drink and brought it with him. He’d been texting me pictures of this alcoholic beverage he was trying, called “Kinky”, and mixing it with Moscato. I was asking what it tasted like so he made me a cup.

We’d been being friendly but he hadn’t seemed interested in meeting up for anything more. He kept acting all depressed and sad and envious of the fact that I have been getting out and seeing guys. Yet, when I made a comment about him not seeming interested in hanging out with ME, he said “I am, but I don’t know if I can handle it” and commented that we argued “too much”.

So okay, I’m thinking then he must just want to be friends right? He keeps initiating text conversations with me and seeming to want to chat. When he was here I gave him a hug goodbye and said thanks for the stuff. He apologized for not having showered, so he wasn’t getting all fixed up for me or anything.

Anyhow, I’m starting to accept that he seems to want to be platonic friends and thinking okay, I can handle this. Then I sent him a Facebook request. We’ve never been Facebook friends before but we’d been talking a lot lately and I’d written something I kind of wanted him to read and see what he thought. It would have been too long to send over text.

He didn’t accept my request. He totally ignored it but kept on texting me. 5 days later I finally asked why? He made some remark about how he doesn’t like to have “Lifestyle friends” on there because of his job. I pointed out that he has that married woman on there and he says that he told her he would “probably take her off soon, for the same reason”. COME ON! Give me a fucking break!! That is utter bullshit. If he were going to take her off for that reason he’d have done it by now!!

I said “I doubt it” and his response was “That’s not true. I haven’t seen her since April”. Um, did I ask when he saw her?? WTF? I just ignored his texting after that and haven’t responded since.

I can’t think of any reason he wouldn’t want me on there that isn’t offensive, and made especially offensive by the fact that SHE is on there!! Just another reminder that he thinks she is somehow better and more valuable than me. What a fucktard.

Not that I care that much about having him on my Facebook page but it’s just the concept behind it all. Like what? Are you embarrassed of me? Do you think I’m trashy enough to go airing dirty laundry on Facebook when I get upset? Clearly, if you think that, you don’t know me very well. That’s SO insulting! UGH!

At least I’m seeing the Producer for lunch tomorrow. We probably won’t be having sex, just hanging out. He tried to talk me into a threesome with this 21 year old girl last night and I just wasn’t interested in going there, especially right now when I’m about to start my period and would be overemotional. Don’t want to risk flipping out or getting hurt feelings over something silly.

I told him all that too, lol. He also claims how bad she wants me and that she wanted to text me. I told him tell her she can send me an email or something, I don’t really like texting that much. Not to be offensive but texting with a 21 yr old girl sounds really annoying to me, lol.

It’s bad enough when it’s this 23 year old guy I slept with last year. He keeps trying to get me to see him again and I just felt so awkward, I don’t know if I can. He’s sooo cute, but it’s just too “cute” or something, like he has this baby face and he seems soo young. He’s also in a fraternity, lol. I am WAY too old to be fucking frat boys! Haha!

Oh and the Pilot still has not contacted me and never responded to my apology. He was, however, looking at my profile on the swinger site yesterday. Wonder why? I had unblocked him but he hasn’t unblocked me. Ah well.

I do have a guy I have been talking to that I really hope works out. He and I will be meeting in person soon but we’ve been mostly communicating over email. He’s from the swinger site and has over 100 positive validations from females. They make him sound like hot stuff and his pics aren’t half bad either!! 😉

Also, he’s fun over email and seems sweet and nice. He has been in an open relationship for over 9 years, with the mother of his child, so I’ve asked him a lot of questions about that and how he does it. He says he only plays with singles when travelling and that she does the same. They can play with couples close to home but she doesn’t do it nearly as often as he does. I guess when she does though it’s mostly single men. He goes out to dinner or dancing with other women but saves “romantic dinners” for her.

He’s the IT manager at a law firm. So, no idea what I will call him if we end up hitting it off, lol. He has also invited me to come along with him and some of his guy friends on a “guy’s weekend” that they are having. I’m thinking that kind of defeats the purpose of a weekend with the guys and asked if he meant for me to fuck them too. He said not necessarily. Hmmm. In any case, I told him I want to meet him first and make sure we even click and he said he agreed that was a good idea.

Okay, dangit, I am telling you all too much and haven’t even gotten to the rest of my facts. I’ll try and be concise ;).

2. I love avocadoes. I could eat them day and night, every day and be happy. Oh wait, that’s what I used to do when I lived in Hawaii. We had two avocado trees and ate them constantly. My dad would be all “we don’t need to buy groceries, just go eat an avocado” and suggesting things like avocado pancakes and avocado peanut butter sandwiches (!). Nevertheless, I NEVER got tired of eating them, lol. Give me some salt and lemon juice with it and I’m even more happy. On burgers, tacos, in salads, sandwiches, you name it! I love making homemade guacamole too.

3. Pineapples! I love them too!! Especially fresh but I’ll eat almost anything with pineapples in it. Chocolate covered, in smoothies, on ham, in some cake. Yeah baby! LOL I used to, when I wasn’t drinking alcohol, order a pineapple juice instead, every time we went to a restaurant. If they serve alcohol they almost always have it on hand, whether it’s listed on the menu or not.

4. My teenage son is driving me batshit crazy. I am so at my wits end with him!! I’m trying so hard to deal with everything he brings up but it’s something new EVERY FUCKING DAY. Some kid is claiming he stole their bike and I have parents yelling at me on almost the daily. Thing is, he has a very expensive BMX bike and I’m pretty darn sure he’s never stolen one!! Virtually every time it turns out to be this kid who is a “friend” of his and keeps putting the blame on him. The kid finally tried to take HIS bike and pulled a knife on him. I’m so fed up!

When it’s not that, someone is calling the cops because he and some kid he had spending the night are writing their names in lighter fluid in the road and setting them on fire (at 4am while I was fast asleep) or blowing up bike tires by over-pumping them and waking up the entire neighborhood.

He and a friend actually tried to hide in the trunk of my van when I was headed out to a date with the Producer. I got in the lobby of the hotel, where we were meeting before going out to get a drink and he calls me on the phone to ask what I am doing at a hotel. They thought they were hilarious. Sigh….

I don’t know. I used to be critical of parents whose kids were like this, back when I was working with them. I guess I’m getting a taste of my own medicine now. He’s just such a little imp!! I swear people used to tell me how well behaved he was when he was little, even though he’s always had boatloads of energy. He’s like 5 ADHD 2 year olds on speed, I’m not kidding. Somehow, for some reason, I ended up with this child. It must be paybacks for everything I’ve ever done in this life and maybe some others, lol. My others are little angels in comparison, that hardly ever misbehave. Thank God!!

5. I’m home alone today, just enjoying several hours all by myself, for the first time in a really long time! The Producer and I were going to meet but I guess he pulled out his hip or something and decided to wait to drive here until tomorrow. I was actually kind of relieved. Even if he is meeting up with that 21 year old instead, I am totally fine with that. I told him if he wanted to do that, when he first brought up the threesome, that he could just get together with her instead but he was insistent he’d rather be with me. I, on the other hand, just wasn’t feeling it and kind of wanted some alone time. So I guess it all worked out for the best.

I did some shopping and got myself a cute little sundress that I will probably wear when he and I go out for lunch tomorrow and made myself some dinner and am working on my blog. Oh, and I had a grand old time with my toy, all alone, and a fantastic orgasm ;). Not really in the mood to deal with men at the moment, which is unusual, since my sex drive tends to be very high, but I think I just needed a break.

6. I’ve been looking into some ways to make money writing and found some ideas that I think might work. Going to give it a shot anyhow. Nothing to do with this blog, since I don’t want to make you all view advertisements. You’d hate that right? I find pop ups and stuff when I’m trying to read someone’s stuff really frustrating.

I’d love to get paid for reviewing things or writing articles online. I enjoy writing and always thought it would be great to actually make something doing it. It’s just so hard to find legit opportunities. If it actually works out I will have to let you all know!

In the meantime, there’s always that Paypal Donate button!! (wink, wink) Psst…it’s at the top right of the page and I will always LOVE and appreciate your financial support! You know what they say, there’s no nation like a DOUGH-nation and no city like GENEROSITY!! 😉 😀

7. I love wearing skirts and sundresses in the summer. I wish I could dress like that all year. It’s just so summery and breezy and even more fun when you are on a date and forget your panties. 😉

I went out the other night with the Producer to this dinner theater and it was fun. I wore a short skirt and as he was dropping me off to go park the car I told him I wasn’t wearing any panties under it and you should have seen the look on his face! Haha

It was a cool theater too, where you could recline in your chair and they brought you alcoholic beverages and food. We went out to a bar afterwards and he was sliding his hand underneath my skirt, while we were sitting on barstools at the bar. Afterwards, was, what else, but fun sex?

He cornered me though, in the car, as we were driving back, to ask me to rate him on a scale of 1-10 again. Sigh. I think I said 8. I mean, it’s probably more like a 6.5-7 but I’m not trying to hurt his feelings. Then he demanded to know if I’d ever slept with a 10 before and I was honest and said yes (after he kept saying BE HONEST). He wanted to know why but how can I explain that to him?? I may have to write a blog post about that soon.

Gosh, I’m finished already? Kidding. I want to recommend to you some more awesome blogs I have found recently as well. So, to all of my fabulous rewardees, (that’s not really a word, is it? But you know what I mean) keep smilin, keep shinin, knowin you can always count on me….for sure…

Be sure to keep this award shining on to the next person, post the lovely blog award image. Mention me, linking to my blog, state 7 things about yourself and name 15 great blogger recipients of your own! Shine on sexy people!

1. The Mental Illness and Non-Monogamy Blog
2. Laffemeroar
3. My Gay Guy
4. AngelMorals
5. Dreamshadow 59
6. Joseph McNamara
7. A Day in the Life of Shareen A.
8. Sun and Fun
9. Being a Beautiful Mess
10. My Mind to Your Mind
11. A Sexual Being
12. Goodgirlmostly
13. Vegasfetishes
14. HandswhereIcanseethem
15. MariMar

Versatile? You better believe it!

Versatile Blogger Award

I love the Versatile Blog Award, because I think it really DOES describe me! I’m versatile in a lot of ways, in and out of the bedroom. 😉 This is my second time receiving this award and I am quite flattered!! 😀

A special thanks to Jack Joseph’s Mom for nominating me! I encourage you all to check out her blog. As someone who has suffered a rather traumatic miscarriage myself, I really feel for her. Even though I already had children, it affected me quite a bit. I passed my 8 week old baby/fetus onto the bathroom floor and wasn’t willing to let it go for a while, finally burying him/her in a little box in my yard. You could definitely see the features of my little developing baby, still inside the sac. I took pictures and everything.

To people who haven’t experienced something similar I’m sure it seems morbid, but that was all a part of processing the grief. I wanted to show everyone the baby and the pictures and not everyone wanted to see, which I understand, but to me it was important to acknowledge that my baby was real. I thank her for helping open people’s eyes and understanding.

On to the award! I again get to give 7 facts about myself and nominate 15 fellow bloggers! Woohoo!! In keeping with the spirit of versatility, I’m going to start out with some ways in which I fit the description.

1. From a very early age I was exposed to a lot of different people, cultures and ways of life. I was born in Hawaii, which is a melting pot in its own right, where people don’t wear shoes in the house and Polynesian and Asian traditions and languages mix in with a hodgepodge of others. Eventually we moved away and my mother married a man from South America, who barely spoke English. Of course, with him came his family and their traditions. So this little white girl had an Abuela and Abuelo and a zillion aunties, uncles and cousins. Later, my mother married a black man and I was immersed in a different subset of American culture. His family may have been less than thrilled that he was married to a white woman, but as for me, being a child, I was accepted and brought into the fold, again amongst a multitude of relatives. My mother’s mother is part Greek and my father was part Native American so add that to the mix and you can see how I grew to easily adapt.

2. Probably because of all this, I’ve always found it relatively easy to feel at home with different groups of people. In my teen years I could be found at all black parties (other than me of course) in the hood, or across town living it up with the rich white kids. The next day I might be running around with my Mexican girlfriends or drinking with the Natives. I could be seen with a group of friends with blue and green hair, mowhawks and various piercings, or with some sorority girls, depending on the day. During my married years I blended in with the conservative church folks and we lived surrounded by Amish. The only people I really seem to have a hard time relating to are redneck country people and hicks, lol. Not that I haven’t tried, it’s just the mindset seems harder to understand.

3. However, being the “white kid” growing up did have its disadvantages, lol. Occasionally it got me “drafted” into doing things my dumb ass should have said no to. As in “hey, Lovergirl, you’re white! Why don’t YOU return these stolen items to the store and get us some money! They’ll believe YOU!” Or “hey, let’s go to McDonald’s and Lovergirl can tell them they got our order wrong, so we all get free food!” I was a little too willing to go along with these schemes, lol, perhaps due to my overly kind, accommodating nature combined with lack of fear and faith in my ability to appear “innocent” but hey, most of the time it worked! It’s even been “here Lovergirl, hold my gun while I run into this gas station” and sweet talking teachers or the police. Yeah, I guess I’m blessed with a lot of pure luck too, lmao.

4. Speaking of stealing, I went through a phase as a teenager where I did some unsavory things, and that was one of them. I had a girlfriend who could walk into virtually any store and rob them blind. As far as I know she still does. My sister said awhile back that she asked her if she “needed anything” when she went shopping, lol.

From her, I learned some tricks. For one, she used to walk into a store, with no makeup on and just use whatever they had available to get ready to go out for the night. Like she’d be opening up eye shadows and mascara’s and lipstick, just putting it on there in the store, with no concern about whether or not she got caught. She’d finish with a spritz of perfume and off we’d go to a club or something, lol. SMH…..

I loved her to death but I even caught her stealing clothes from ME. Eyeroll…. Anyhow we used to walk into grocery stores and just walk out the door with 2 liters of pop, chips, whatever. One time another girlfriend and I filled an entire grocery cart, with things like pot pies and such and threw some empty boxes on top. Me, being the “white girl”, went up and sweetly asked the manager if it was okay for us to have these boxes and he said yes. So we took all of our loot and loaded up! Bad, bad!

5. Oh, that wasn’t the only thing. I worked in a donut shop and a savvy (this time white) girl taught me how to pretend I was ringing up a dozen and only charge for one donut, pocketing the rest of the money. I also handed out tons of free dozens to friends, rationalizing that they threw away so many anyway, that it wasn’t that big of a deal. It’s true that they trashed huge bagfuls of donuts at the end of every night and because of some stupid regulations couldn’t even donate them to homeless people, who would instead come digging in the trash can after hours. Oh, and the friend who showed me how to pilfer the money? She went on to become a teacher, then a scientist and now a lawyer…hmmm… I knew a preacher’s daughter too, in college, who would take stuff from Walmart all the time.

6. I also went through a “car-hopping”, as we used to call it, phase. We never stole much of any real value, but we did dress in dark clothes, tape our fingers and break into vehicles to see what we could find. Stupid, just stupid, lol, considering most of what we ended up with was spare change anyhow and at first we were actually dumb enough to use scotch tape. ::: slapping forehead :::

Thankfully I outgrew all of that. I think I’ve mentioned before that my mother never has. She is a total klepto. If that is a real disorder, then she has it. She even stole a freaking VACUUM CLEANER for my baby sister’s new apartment. How the hell, in this day and age do you get away with that? I don’t even want to know…

7. I feel like I need to redeem myself here, lest you lose all respect for me, haha. Really though, now that I’m all grown up I’m pretty straight and narrow. I try and avoid all illegal activity. My focus is on being a good mom and example.

I still enjoy talking to people from all walks of life and the accompanying diversity. So let me proceed with introducing you to some more of the many interesting blogs out there!!

1. A True Unfolding
2. His Princess 307
3. Inner Musings of a Scarlet Woman
4. Love, Sex and Marriage
5. Ding Dong, its Mr. Wrong!
6. My Life as I Know It
7. Of Fries and Men
8. Secret Diary Of a Girl
9. Research to be Done
10. The Narcissist’s Blog
11. A Girl Named Clay
12. The Bad Wife’s Guide
13. Diary of a Lolita
14. Mr. Guy Pants
15. Ask Miriam

Ahhhh….inspiration!

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Yes, yes!! I’ve been nominated again, for the 3rd and 4th time, for the Very Inspiring Blogger award!! What does this say about me and my blog? That I’m inspiring folks to get off their butts and quit sulking, go to a swinger party, fuck someone you met off Craigslist, just do the damn thing!! 😉 Trying to follow that advice myself as well right now, haha. 😉 Someone, hit me over the head!

A world of thanks to Speaking out on Nate and Betty Homebanger for presenting me with this prestigious award and helping to inspire ME out of my doldrums! You are both awesome and I love your blogs and everyone should check them out! A special thanks to Betty, because your name has inspired me to recall the dreaded fate of Blow Job Betty back in the day in the infamous song by Too Short. Perhaps this will save me, somehow, from choking to death on a throatful of cum. We all owe her a moment of silence this Memorial Day.

In any case, I love this award because I get to come up with 7 random facts about myself all on my own, no hard questions, lol. Then I get to pass it on to 15 deserving bloggers. I love to try and pick new ones each time, to give some variety to my readers and let them see the world of inspiration that is to be found out there amongst talented writers.

Most of the people I follow talk about things sexual, but not always. Lovergirl is a variety kind of gal, afterall. I enjoy reading and discussing all sorts of topics. Keep peeling back the layers because there is always more to find out about me! I’m like one of those little nesting dolls, where you open it up and there’s another one inside, and another, and another, it never ends.

So what should I tell you about me this time? Hmmmm….

1. I’ve fucked several sets of brothers. I can think of at least three families where I have had sex with more than one of the guys, and that is just off the top of my head. I’ve done cousins too, but I’ve never done a guy and his dad. What got me thinking about this is a photo I saw of a guy that used to like me (we never actually had sex, no idea why, I would have) and his dad at a family BBQ yesterday on Facebook. He’s a cousin of the guy I had the affair with too (and I’ve slept with several of HIS brothers, lol).

Anyhow his Dad looked freaking hot to me. I was thinking I’d like to fuck HIM, lmao. He’s got to be pretty old because the guy in question is at least 3-4 years older than me and this is his DAD, but he doesn’t look it. I’m thinking he must be one of the guy I had the affair with’s uncles too.

Damn, something about the guys in that family. I have a real affinity for them, but then so do half the women in that town, lol. Affair guy’s dad has like 20 kids with like 8,9, 10 or more women and HIS brothers were apparently fucking the town back in the day too, so, they get around, which makes it even more feasible. Hmmm…you never know…

Hey, and this is the INSPIRING blog award! Maybe I can inspire you all to do something similar 😉 Keepin it in the family? LMAO

2. I don’t think I’ve ever broken anyone’s heart. I mean there have been guys who were all into me and I wasn’t feeling it, and stalkers and the like, but I’ve never broken up a relationship with things like “it’s not you, it’s me” or “this just isn’t going to work out” type statements. It was always either the guy dumping me or some kind of big blowup, like where he got another girl pregnant or tried to choke me for confessing to cheating on him or something. Even my marriage, I filed for divorce but it wasn’t until after HE fell in love with another woman and after him saying in marriage counseling that he would leave me and the kids for her if she’d be with him, that we went there. I’m pretty tenderhearted and really hate to hurt people.

3. I’ve never asked a guy out, except for ONE time there was this guy in high school that I had a crush on. He was in my Spanish class and we’d kind of flirt every day, so I thought he liked me. Plus he was smoking hot with a really nice body and a wrestler.

I don’t know if I actually “asked him out” but I told him I liked him, over the phone. Turns out he was dating a girl that lived down the street from me and I didn’t even know it, but he took me out anyway, which was kind of weird, lol, but okay. Like, he said sorry, he had a girlfriend but then asked me to go somewhere with him and took me on a little date. I don’t know if he just felt bad for me or if he secretly kind of liked me, I think it was a bit of both. I think we actually went out twice.

4. I smoked a lot of pot as a teenager, but other than that never really got into drugs. I mean, I tripped on acid a couple of times and smoked some wet a handful of times or occasionally pot laced with coke. Oh, and one time I smoked crack, but it was by accident.

How the hell do you smoke crack by accident, you ask? LMAO But really, it was on a plate with a bunch of other stuff at this drug dealer’s house. My friend was dating him at the time and we just grabbed the wrong stuff and a bunch of us girls were there. We didn’t realize it until too late and we noticed the smell. Then of course we stopped, but…oops!

Considering my parents both have/had drug issues that is pretty tame. I’ve only smoked pot once as an adult (past the age of 19) at a swinger party. I was out in the car with this crazy wild girl, haha and already drunk off my ass. I think all of my siblings smoke pot but not I. Last time I went to visit I was sitting on the bed in my sister’s room while three of them got high, but I didn’t even do it then.

5. I’m really not a big drinker. I will get drunk occasionally, but usually if I drink it’s a glass or two of wine. I especially love Moscato D’Asti or D’oro. Oh and I like Margaritas or Vodka and cranberry juice or lemon drop shots. The Prof has made me Midori sours too and I like those a lot too. Back when, I used to down a lot of Jack Daniels and Lemonade or Kamikazi’s. Nowadays, I drink maybe once or twice a month.

Back in the day I got drunk a lot more, before my marriage, but was more into smoking pot. In any case, my very first episode of getting completely wasted, I was 15. My grandmother was out of town and my girlfriend and I invited over a couple of guys (which later turned into a big party with us as the only females). One was my boyfriend at the time and the other was this 21 year old guy that lived across the street. He brought the alcohol.

We played Quarters and I was losing badly and ended up downing half a bottle of kiwi- lemon mad dog, half a bottle of Wild Irish Rose and half a 40 oz of Old E. I paid dearly for this and not only had sex with my boyfriend but later got near raped by another guy and eventually woke up half naked in my bed after throwing up all over the place.

One of the things I remember though, was sitting on the couch with my 40 oz and a bunch of guys my age and a little younger were all around me trying to get a sip. There were like 8 of them and some of them were trying to kiss on me. In walks a few more guys and one of them was a brother of the guy I had the affair with.

He was like “DAMN girl, you are a PLAYER, look at you!!” and for the longest time he gave me hell about that at school. It was hilarious. LOL Even fairly recently, he loves to tell people stories about me and some of the other things I have done, though I’d say he exaggerates. He told my sister that he and I had sex but that’s not entirely true, we just 69’d one night when we’d been goofing off for a while and he went to try and fuck me but came before he ever got inside me.

6. I’ve had a lot of guys exaggerate our sexual escapades (what else is new, lol). One in particular claimed to everyone that I gave him head when he was outside my bedroom window. In reality, we were making out and I just jacked him off till he came. It would have been quite a feat for me to hang upside down from the window and give him a blowjob that way but nevertheless my supposed flexibility skills became legendary. 😉 Dang, a blow job like that and I really could have ended up like old Betty 😉 HA!

7. I love, love, love riding roller coasters!! The bigger and scarier the better. Nothing like the feeling of that BIG DROP! It’s such a rush, lol. I haven’t been on one for a while but I always enjoyed them and other similar rides at amusement parks.

One time, when I was maybe 12 or 13, some friends and I got dropped off at an amusement park for the day with no adults in sight and rode the same big coasters, over and over and over (it was like a weekday and not too many people there). At one point I decided to not only hold my hands up in the air but put my feet on the front of the car as well. Someone saw this and they stopped the whole ride and a guy had to climb up to the top of the hill to tell me it was too dangerous and I needed to put my foot down.

Also, thinking of the guy I mentioned above (the one that used to call me a player), one year at the county fair he and I must have ridden the “gerbil cages” as I like to call them (no idea what that ride is actually named) 20 times. It’s that ride where you have the control to flip your own car over while it is also spinning around and around and you are in this little “cage”. It was nighttime and we kept riding together, trying to flip it over and over as many times and as hard as possible. Amazingly, neither of us ever threw up, lol.

It was fun though, having someone who was just as enthusiastic as I was about getting our thrills on, most people would get tired. I’m so not a “shopper” at amusement parks. I want the exciting stuff!! I hate it when folks wanna look around at all the little trinkets and do boring crap.

Well, that was random! LOL but I guess that’s the point!! While I’m writing a blog post I guess I should mention the good news. 

I texted with the Professor last night. I’m the one that initiated it but it was really, really good to hear from him again. I wasn’t going to do it but since we’d already looked at each other’s profiles I thought now or never.

I said I was glad he has found someone new (not!) and he said he hasn’t that they were people he’s known a long time. I didn’t ask more questions about that. In any case, I was really, really happy to learn that he got the new job he’d applied for before. It is perfect for him and he will be making like 12,000 extra per year. I’d been secretly rooting for him with that one even since the breakup.

I know everyone says it’s better to pretend you are doing wonderful if you want to get back together with someone but I didn’t do that. I just said I was going to be honest and admitted I’d been kind of heartbroken but that I know it will be okay in the long run. He said he was sorry, that he hadn’t wanted to hurt me and I told him I know.

I’m not sure where things will go from here. He sounded like he was missing me too. I said I hoped he had a good summer and that it was kind of hard to say goodbye again after not talking for so long and he agreed, saying “it’s really hard”. He’s actually away visiting family in another city for the holiday but he still took the time out to text with me. Maybe that’s a good sign, but I also don’t want to get my hopes up. Keep your fingers crossed for me anyway. I really think he and I could work things out if he was willing.

I said I’m not one of these people that has it all together, that I am flawed, insecure and needy for love and affection and definitely a fixer-upper. He was like “It’s ok. Trust me I have my issues too. I’m not close to figuring out much of anything. Hell, I need a lot of work”. In any case, I miss him, though I didn’t say it, I think it was pretty obvious. I feel kinda like he wants me back too.

Okay, enough of that! Before I forget or go on too long, here are the wonderful winners of the award that I am passing on!! Congrats to all of you and hope I’m inspiring my readers to check you out!! 😀

1. Accidental Masturbator
2. Because I’m a Whore
3. Dominant Soul
4. Eroticnoire
5. Gemini Words
6. Letters to My Lover’s Wife
7. My Puzzled Life
8. Passive Aggressive Abuse
9. Red, Red, Apples
10. Ten Years In
11. The Invisible Woman
12. The Mommaleh
13. The Wandering Mind
14. Theo Black
15. Tixarah

Inspired by me?? I am so honored!! :D

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Your very own Lovergirl has been awarded the Very Inspiring Blogger Award! Thank you so much to the lovely Kay of the DAFT Diaries! Her blog is an inspiration to ME so I am especially honored!! If you haven’t gone over there to take a peek, please do!

The rules of this award are pretty similar to the others:

1.) Display the award logo on your blog.
2.) Link back to the person who nominated you.
3.) State 7 things about yourself.
4.) Nominate 15 bloggers for this award.
5.) Notify those bloggers of the nomination by linking to one of their specific posts so that they get notified by ping back.

So let’s get to the exciting stuff!! 😉

7 MORE intriguing facts about your favorite Lovergirl:

1. One of my most embarrassing moments ever was being caught masturbating by not one, not two, but THREE guys peeking in the window of my bedroom back in high school. They were three sort of nerdy neighborhood boys around my age who happened to come peer in between the slats of my blinds while I was fingering away. Of course, they had to spread the news far and wide and I denied, denied, denied!! Who me? I would never do such a naughty thing!! I’m sure everyone believed that one! NOT!! Total humiliation!

Nowadays kids seem a lot more likely to fess up about the fact that they masturbate, at least my kid does. I found an opened sample of baby shampoo in the boys’ room awhile back and the first thing out of my 13 year old’s mouth was “I WASN’T using that to jack off!!” Err….TMI son, TMI!!! LOL That never would have even OCCURRED to me if you’d kept your mouth shut!! Haha

2. I am in love with the SongPop game on Facebook. If I could design a perfect game that’s exactly what it would be like! I’m excelling in the Classic Rap, Classic RnB, Mowtown, and 80’s and 90’s music categories as well as doing pretty well with Duets, Funk and Soul. You know you wanna play me!! Nevermind that half the time when I’m playing I have LOUD kids in the background or people talking to me and distractions going on, I’m still killing it!! 😉

3. I’ve never been to a Karaoke bar. Never!! They were just starting to become popular back in the late 90’s while I was busy getting married to a man that was deeply involved in the church and ministry and totally against drinking or going to bars. There was no alcohol at my wedding (lame!!) He wouldn’t even go to movie theatres. We were that hardcore into conservative Christianity and we lived out in the middle of nowhere surrounded by Amish people. Someone needs to take me to one and soon!! 😀

4. When I lived near a secluded beach in Hawaii I used to sometimes hike up among the sand and rocks, strip off all my clothes and sunbathe or swim naked, fantasizing that some random hot guy would be watching and come along and fuck me. It never happened though! Where the hell are all the sexy strangers when you need them? 😉

5. I never went to my high school prom. I was having sex with a few different people but no one asked me. 😦 I guess they didn’t think of me as the type to take home to Mama. Plus, I didn’t have money for a dress. So instead I went to a three day music festival featuring local bands with a group of friends, managed to get in for free and had a crazy time. I’ll bet that was way more fun than a formal dance anyhow….

6. I taught Sunday School for years and Children’s Church and wrote and performed puppet shows and taught preschool and was a day camp counselor. My ex was in ministry and I homeschooled our kids. I’m like the queen of thrift and even used to make my own baby wipes and cleaning supplies and bread and tortillas and all sorts of stuff to save money. I’d bet you’d never guess I’d be the type to lead a secret life. Shhhhh……

Thing is that during that time, at least for the first 11 years of my marriage and the couple of years of dating my ex- husband before that, I WASN’T living a double life. I was faithful and beyond reproach, even though he wasn’t showing much interest in sex with me and even though I felt rejected and alone. I’m living proof that a ho CAN actually turn into a housewife….at least for awhile! I finally cheated ON my 11th Anniversary, a day that my ex -husband had refused sex with me anyway.

7. I ran away from home on my 14th Birthday, from my psychotic, crack smoking stepfather who had threatened to kill me with a gun. He was angry that I had been trying to tell people he was molesting my 6 year old sister. Someone had called the police after seeing him grab me and shove me onto the stairs and slap me across the face so I told them of his threat and he convinced them I was full of shit. They handed me a business card and told me he wasn’t allowed to make threats and to call if I had any more issues. So he unplugged all the phones in the house and sat in between the front and back door on the lower level of the house to prevent me from escaping.

I managed to climb out a second story bathroom window, hanging down and dropping from it to the ground below and made a run for my life. The cops never caught up with me though one time my stepfather came past a friend’s house where we were hiding alone and we stayed in a closet while he banged on the door and made threats, hoping he couldn’t see we were actually there. Eventually I turned myself in by going to school and was sent away to live with my father for a year and later with other relatives and my grandma but I never went back home to live with my mother. That’s just the tip of the iceberg. I could fill a book with true tales from my childhood that would make a great Lifetime movie.

And NOW, for the Grand Finale!! 15 fascinating bloggers that you absolutely MUST check out!! I noticed that some of my favorites are also on the list of the lovely woman who nominated me so I am trying to avoid repeats! There are just so many great blogs out there! Please take a look at these ones!!

1. Confessions of a Preacher’s Daughter
2. Her Secret Library
3. Jack of all Triads
4. Epicurus and Lilith
5. SeattlePolyGuy
6. SnarkySnatch
7. State of Grace
8. The Hunt for Mr. Right Now
9. Speaking out on Sex
10. Smooth Re-entry
11. Pyx
12. Growing Up Little
13. The Poly Orange
14. Nice Girls Like Sex Too
15. Pilot Precise

P.S. I actually recieved the Very Inspiring Blogger Award from TWO different people!! The second one being Newly Single Guy, who I was going to put on my list here but saw he had already been nominated. Thank you, thank you, thank you!! 😀 So here’s a shout out to him! Love his blog and reading his thoughts!

I’m a beautiful blogger!! :D

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Yay!!! I’ve been nominated for another blog award, or as Joe over at MyJadedParts, who submitted my blog for the award, calls it, a “chain” award, haha. That’s okay, because I love the attention and love that my blog is being recognized. So excited to pass on some more chain mail, lol.

Anyhoo, here are the rules, which are very similar to the rules of the Liebster award I received, only there are less questions to answer so I’m gonna make this one a little more sexual and be like Joe over there exposing my 7 “freaky” facts. 😉

1) Post a photo of the Beautiful Blogger Award in your blog post (isn’t it lovely?)

2) Thank the person who nominated me for the award and provide a link to their blog: Thank you Joe!! You are awesome, Rainbow Brite fetish and all….

3) Share 7 facts about myself: okay, here goes!!

7 Freaky Facts about the Lovergirl you love and thought you knew 😉

1. I lost my virginity at the tender age of 13, to a 15 year old guy that I was dating, in a hotel room. It wasn’t OUR hotel room though. We broke into it with a stolen key and had sex on the bed, next to someone else’s luggage, in the hopes that they wouldn’t return before we were finished. Yeah, I got started with a BANG, lol…. Figures.

2. My first anal sex I was also 13 and in a public sauna that was next to the swimming pool of that same hotel. The only difference is that I didn’t LIKE the anal sex so much. We had never heard of lube and he just kind of rammed it in and I got dizzy and lightheaded and almost threw up, which was very similar to my second anal experience and why I’m really just not an “anal girl”. I know, I know, BORING, but hey, it’s a personal preference and just not my thing. I’m not against trying it again, with the right guy, but I really don’t care for the way it feels. A guy at my first swinger party tried to stick it in there too (without asking, as has been my experiences thus far) and got about halfway before I pushed him away. It didn’t feel good to me at all.

3. I was sleeping with multiple guys at once before polyamory was cool. I’d even say some of the activities I got involved with were typical of an adult swingers party. However, we were not adults. I also had a regular rotation of guys that I slept with without ever having to plan anything. People were just calling and showing up to fuck all the time. That was a part of my underground lifestyle back in high school. A lot of people would never have known, but of course I did have a reputation among the ones that did.

4. I’ve had sex in a lot of crazy places. This includes public bathrooms, outside in the woods and on the lake, in parking lots, in cars while others were driving, in ditches on the side of the road, outside my grandmother’s bedroom window doggystyle in the snow with a big coat on, threesomes on picnic tables at the park, at a public swimming pool we had snuck into at night, in a hot tub whilst chatting with an old man, blow jobs on the roof of a junior high school (school was not in session though) and at the lake while the guy was floating on a raft and probably a lot more that I am not thinking of off the top of my head. Maybe the worst was in a public porta potty at the lake. Thankfully it was a fairly new one and not too smelly and also the guy made SURE I didn’t have to touch anything. He was standing up and holding me so I wouldn’t have to get any germs, lol. We just couldn’t wait until later!!

5. I held a lot of shame in my mind over some of my sexual escapades in the past, including things like a couple of gangbangs (technically trains ran on me) that as an adult I can see I wasn’t solely responsible for (some of the guys were older, there were a lot more of them than me and I was scared, intimidated and said no at first but was too afraid not to cooperate) and from being one of those girls you hear about in rap songs who was doing the whole damn crew but now that I am older and in a place where I can have more control over things and better self- esteem I am getting over it and realizing I am not a bad person for ENJOYING sexual activity with whoever I CHOOSE to have it with. I’m fascinated that there are women in the swinger community who fantasize about the sort of thing I was subject to at a young age but I don’t think it’s for me at all.

6. My sexual number is not as high as it might sound! It is over 50 but actually the vast majority of people I have slept with were regular, repeat customers (no I’ve never been paid for sex). I was married pretty young and for the first 11 years did not cheat so that took out a huge chunk of possible sex partner number rack up, lol.

7. I have some fantasies that are still left unfulfilled. Among them are wanting to experience things like being tied up and blindfolded. Someday! Not really wanting serious BDSM or anything, but just a little bit, lol. I have a bit of a Daddy fetish too and really, really want a REAL over the knee type spanking but haven’t gotten that yet either. 😉

Now for the 7 blogs that I recommend you check out!! There are so many and I want to bring attention to some of the ones I didn’t get last time. Anyway, here are some great ones that you should take a look at!

1. The Romantic Misogynist
2. The DAFT Diaries
3. FreeChick
4. Kdaddy23
5. sexuallifeofawife
6. Comingcleanaboutgettingdirty
7. yesmylifeisagongshow

DRUMROLL…. My First Blog Award!! :D

I am so excited!! My first ever blog award!! Thank you, http://seattlepolychick.com/ for nominating me!! 😀

My blog was started less than two months ago and I have been thrilled at the response level. I’m really happy that my writing has caught people’s attention and is being read by so many already. Seattlepolychick’s blog was one of the first ones I discovered on WordPress and I am especially honored that she found mine intriguing enough to mention! If you haven’t checked out her writing yet, please do. Her stories of everyday life as a polyamorous woman and her different lovers are fascinating and encouraging to me. 🙂

So here are the RULES of accepting the Liebster award, which I will try my best to follow,

* When one receives the award, one posts 11 random facts about oneself and answers the 11 questions asked by the person who nominated you.

*Pass the award onto 11 other blogs (while making sure one notifies the blogger that one nominated them!)

* One writes up 11 NEW questions directed towards YOUR nominees.

* One is not allowed to nominate the blog who nominated one’s own blog!

* One pastes the award picture into ones blog. (You can google the image, there are plenty of them!)

SO, without further ado…..

11 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

1. I learned to swim before I learned how to walk. I started taking swimming lessons with a world renowned swimming teacher who worked with babies when I was 4 months old. Swimming still seems almost more natural than walking to me! I am an excellent swimmer and once saved a drunken man who had tried to commit suicide by drowning himself. He had swum way out to the middle of the lake and was screaming for help now that he’d changed his mind. He was twice my size but I managed to pull him back to shore.

2. Of all of my siblings that have the same mother I am the only “white” child. My brothers and sisters are racially and ethnically mixed (some with Hispanic, some black, and my stepsiblings are black). I jokingly refer to myself as “the white sheep of the family”.

3. I was a precocious child and by the age of 4, thanks to my grandmother, I was reading at an adult level. Because of this I was put in the gifted program at school. I stayed for a few years but the teachers complained that I was lazy and not living up to my potential. Probably this had something to do with the abuse I endured at home and an inability to focus on schoolwork or do homework. Still, school was always easy for me and I got pretty good grades with very little effort, acing pretty much every test that was given to me and even winning some awards for my writing.

4. I once danced in a rap video. No really, lol. It was the lamest, worst “rapper” you ever heard and part of a just say NO to drugs campaign. My high school media/film class and the Black Student Union at school were asked to take part and they filmed two separate videos. The first one was using all black kids and the second one, they needed some white people. I guess I fit the bill, haha. So we had to dance to this horribly pathetic guy rapping and it was shown to thousands of schools across the country in an effort to discourage drug use. I was smoking pot back then too. Shhhhh….

5. I used to work in a home for boys with behavioral disorders and now I have one of my own. Oh, boy, is it a challenge and you’d think I would be prepared to deal with it but every day can be a struggle. I never dreamed I would be here because I thought being a good parent would ensure having well behaved kids. I’m sad to say it doesn’t always work out that way. This one is trying to prove me wrong every step of the way. I’m humbled for sure.

6. I love to cook! I really enjoy trying new recipes and improving on old ones. A few years ago I put together my very own cookbook filled with recipes I’ve found and loved and gathered favorites from friends and family. I made copies for all my close friends and families and gave them as Christmas presents, interspersed with scrapbook pages with pictures of my family and those included on my list. It was a lot of work but so worth it! I use my cookbook all the time. and get calls from others who are enjoying it as well.

7. I didn’t have a TV from the time I started college until about 8 months ago (approximately 17 years) and barely missed it at all. I’m not a big television watcher even now that we have one because I rarely have the time for it. Back in the day I mostly watched MTV and VH1 anyway, when they actually played music videos. It’s always been hard for me just to sit there and WATCH something for hours. I don’t even like long, involved movies.

8. In the rare event that I actually watch television (usually only when I’m working out), I generally pick things that are light and funny. My favorite TV shows are The New Adventures of Old Christine and Sex and the City.

9. I love music, love to sing and was in choir much of my life. I am a bit too shy for solos but I’ve also been in musicals such as Oliver and Bye Bye Birdie in the past and a handful of plays. I don’t know how to read music and have never learned to play an instrument, though I always wished I’d had the opportunity.

10. I was a cheerleader in junior high. I never really could get into being one of the snotty girls though. I’m way too sensitive for that and used to get called on to go talk to the one (slightly) overweight girl on the squad all the time when she got hurt feelings because I was apparently the only one capable of being nice to her.

11. I’ve never mowed a lawn before. Or changed a tire or done any of a myriad of “man jobs”, lol. I can be a little bit prissy about things like that. Don’t wanna mess up my hair/nails you know!

My ANSWERS to the questions asked of me:

1. What are you most proud of?

I’m proud of myself just for making it through life thus far without completely falling apart! I’ve been through a lot but I’m proud of my resilience and ability to bounce back without allowing things to affect me negatively.

2. Who inspires you?

I’m inspired by my grandmother. She too, has had an amazing and interesting, but often very challenging, life and is one of the most cheerful and happy seeming people I know. She also looks so young for her age. I hope to be the same way!

3. What is your favorite holiday?

Christmas!! I love it! I love the feeling of Christmas, the generosity of people during that season, seeing my children’s eyes light up on Christmas morning, singing Christmas carols, all of it. 🙂 I refuse to let the materialism of the season get me down and prefer to see all the positives.

4. Who are some of your favorite authors?

Oh man. This should be easy because I love to read and love books but it’s just too hard to pick! Plus I haven’t been able to sit down and read much for MYSELF in ages! Mostly I am reading children’s books and classics with my kids. I’ve read a lot of books and a lot of really great authors but to even try to remember who my favorites are is just overwhelming.

I’ve read a lot of classic literature but I am just going to leave you with a couple books that I have read recently instead. They are of a more practical variety.

One is a must read for every woman, especially those who have been in an abusive or difficult relationship. It’s called Why Does He Do That? Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men, by Lundy Bancroft. I went through that book with a highlighter and found my ex-husband, over and over and over again, which kind of surprised me because he had seemed so passive. It was really eye opening.

The other book is the one I am reading right now but still haven’t gotten a chance to finish. It’s called The Ethical Slut, A Guide to Infinite Sexual Possibilities, by Dossie Easton and Catherine A. Liszt.

5. why do you write a blog?

I’ve always loved to write and this blog is actually kind of therapeutic to me. It’s nice to be able to write out my experiences and feelings. My original purpose in starting it was to see if anyone would be interested in reading my writing. It’s been a long time dream of mine to write a book but I wondered if anyone would read it. I wanted to see how I did in the blog world first!

6. what did you want to be as a kid?

An actress, lol, of course!! 😉

7. who would play you in a movie about your life? (in your dreams)

Gosh, that’s a hard one! Maybe Sandra Bullock.

8. name 5 really great musicians or bands.

Oh wow, that’s like choosing which guy to have sex with!! 😉 LOL I love so many different musicians and bands, of various genres, though overall RnB is my favorite. More old school than the newer stuff though. Hmmmmm…. okay, how about Tom Petty, R. Kelly, the Isley Brothers, Anthony Hamilton and Jodeci. LOL

9. do you ever get jealous?

Yes, see my blog post on the Evolution of Jealousy for that one!!

10. do you believe in love that lasts forever?

You know, I believe love, as in caring for another person can last forever. Just like you love your kids and your siblings forever and your parents if you are a person who had parents who cared about you (I really didn’t). As for romantic love, I think the “romantic” part probably only lasts a few years. Then, it’s a different kind of love that isn’t as exciting. It can change to a caring love or sometimes it fades away.

11. anything odd that turns you on?

Odd? Probably not, but I’m not sure. I think most of the things that turn me on are probably pretty typical. I like guys that are really confident, dominant but not mean. I think I’m pretty normal in that regard. I like spankings and a little rough play but it seems that’s common.

Eleven blogs you should really check out!! 🙂 There are so many, but this was just off the top of my head!

1.http://aloveinlondon.com/
2.http://onewomanonehundreddicks.com/
3.http://diaryofacheatingwhore.wordpress.com/
4.http://confessionsofyourhusbandsmistress.wordpress.com/
5.http://3somes.wordpress.com/
6.http://notsosexinthecity.wordpress.com/
7.http://iminlovewithaserialcheater.com/
8.http://oversharetheblog.wordpress.com/
9.http://adufresne1.wordpress.com/
10.http://blondewanderlust.com/#http://blondewanderlust.com/
11.http://duskylover.wordpress.com/

Eleven questions for those who accept this award:

1. What was your first sexual experience like?
2. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be and why?
3. Do your friends and family know you have a blog? Why or why not?
4. What are some songs that remind you of your current relationship(s)?
5. What is one of your favorite meals to eat for dinner?
6. Tell us one of your funny or embarrassing dating experiences.
7. What do you think about marriage?
8. Name a book you would recommend to your blog readers?
9. Name something out of the ordinary that you have done sexually. It can be an act, a place you’ve had sex, whatever.
11. What is the most annoying habit of the opposite sex (or people you are dating of the same sex)?