When I left off the last blog entry, I was still at the party and had just finished experiencing a gigantic cock. I feel a little guilty about my attitude at the time, now that he has been texting me a little bit. He’s actually been fairly nice. Maybe I was too hard on him. Guys don’t always want to be treated like a big piece of meat either. In any case, he said his time with me was “phenomenal” and he wants to meet up again. He is a nice looking guy and wasn’t awful or anything, he just seemed pretentious.
That and I was irritated that he wouldn’t cum. In talking with The Redhead later, she brought up that he didn’t cum with her and I said don’t feel bad, me either. We agreed we hate it when men try to reserve that so they can keep fucking at parties or whatever, because it makes you feel like a failure. I mean, I get the reason, because it would be hard for most of them to keep going and going and going if they didn’t, it’s just still a disappointment. They probably don’t like it when we hold back from them either. SHE said when he tried to put her in doggystyle she told him “no way!” LMAO Made me feel a little better about refusing to swallow.
Okay, so when I walked out of the bedroom with this guy, I saw The Host watching from across the room. It was mildly awkward so I just kind of ducked into the kitchen to avoid him. He got up and followed me. He came over and grabbed my arm and said “come here”, practically dragging me back to his bedroom. Only he kept going, and took me into the bathroom.
I was like “why are we going in here?” and he said because it was more private. The private rooms were all filled up and his room was for public play. I couldn’t tell if he was upset or angry or what and was trying to gauge his reaction.
He said he had to have me now, and started undoing his pants. He told me to suck it and I had to close the toilet lid and sit on it to do so, lol. It’s a small little 3/4 bathroom and a tight squeeze in there. I didn’t do that for long before he pulled me up and told me to bend over. Over the toilet, lol, I was having to grab onto the sides of it to hold on.
He grabbed a hold of my hair, pulled me up enough to where he could talk in my ear and said “did he wear a condom?” I said yes and he said “I don’t want you fucking anyone here without a condom but me”. I said okay, (not like I was planning to do that anyhow) and he pulled my hair harder, starts pumping harder and says “I mean it! Do you hear me? I want to be the only one who gets to feel your wetness”.
Okay, anyhow, we were in there for quite awhile, in the same position, with me grabbing onto the sides of the toilet, lol. He kept saying he needed to go and could hear people out there looking for him, but he didn’t want to. He finally stopped (without cumming) and said “I have to go out there but I promise I’ll make love to you later when we are alone”. What’s funny is that today he actually apologized for being “too aggressive” with me and I guess that is what he was talking about, though I wasn’t the least bit bothered by it at all.
After I left the room I was accosted by the security guy I had been flirting with. I guess he saw I had just been in there with the Host. He said he was finished working so we went into a private room. He started to break out a condom and then asks me if I want him to go get his cousin first. I said “sure” so he did. Now I’m kind of regretting that. I think all would have gone much better had it just been the two of us.
This was quite possibly the worst threesome I have ever had. We started out on the bed with me sucking security guy #2’s dick, and the other guy fucking me from behind, just like the last time. Okay, well guy #1 is behind me going at it kind of hard and at the same time guy #2 starts trying to deep throat fuck me. This was not cool as I was gagging and on the verge of throwing up. I had my hand on the lower half of his cock and that was the only thing keeping me from choking to death while they were both ramming me from different directions. I wasn’t in a position where I could SAY anything so I was trying to push back with my hand and stop this and security guy number two starts saying “get your hand out of there, come on suck the whole thing, take it all” and ramming harder.
Let me say here that this is totally NOT my thing! I do not enjoy being gagged to death on someone’s cock or having them fuck my throat. Hell, its hard not to choke sometimes even controlling things myself, let alone with someone ramming it in there. Apparently there are women in the world who enjoy this sort of thing but I am not one of them!!
It got to the point where I managed to pull my mouth off of his cock. He didn’t seem to like that and was yelling something about taking it all in but I pulled away and we switched positions, to where I was fucking HIM instead. He put on a condom and started doing me from the back. Only he was fucking me much harder, ramming it in a lot harder and faster and the OTHER guy starts saying the same crap this one was about taking it in my throat. I was miserable and trying to push them both away at the same time. They didn’t seem to get it.
Someone opened the door and let in the old guy from the last party. Security guy #2 left the room to go grab another woman while this old guy comes up behind me and is trying to finger me from the back, while I’m still in a doggystyle position with my mouth on security guy #1. I was showing no interest in sucking his cock anymore and he’s starting to go limp, but still pushing for me to suck it. Meanwhile the old guy is behind me and trying to finger me from the back, which I also wasn’t enjoying. A dick is one thing but fingers can irritate me at times and in that position and with him basically trying to fuck me with them, it was not fun.
Security guy #2 and the other woman, a skinny older black woman who has the “librarian” look with glasses and gray streaks in her hair came in. She starts sucking his cock and he is telling her the same shit he was saying to me but she actually seems to like it. Maybe because no one was ramming her into him from the back. Anyhow, the old man was diverted onto fingering her and I was glad for that. I started to get up, wanting to leave, but security guy #1 comes up behind me and wants to fuck me over the side of the bed. He was struggling with the condom and losing his erection.
The other woman was really getting into things, really seemed to be enjoying this crap that I hated. I had tears all down my cheeks, and was feeling awful. I just wanted to get out of there, but I let him put it in from behind for a minute. It felt like he went in without a condom and I finally just pulled away from him and walked over to the other side of the room to start getting dressed. I don’t think he came.
Maybe some of it was that it was 4 am and my drinks were starting to wear off, but I was just totally turned off and unhappy. I guess I felt a little inadequate for not liking this stuff when the other woman seemed to think it was so great too. I was hoping though that they would just direct their attention to her. The old guy had left and the second security guy and the other woman finished while I was getting dressed. She was lying on the bed and said she was still cumming. :p
I don’t know. I just hate that sort of thing. To me it feels degrading and I’m not enjoying it a bit. When I say I like dominant men, I don’t mean in that sort of way, at all. Maybe I’m hard to please. It’s one of the reasons I am afraid of gangbangs though. Some guys just don’t get the difference there or what I mean when I try to tell them that. Having a bunch of guys and a misunderstanding in that sense could really end up to be a disaster.
Gotta run, my library time is up. More soon!