Archive | December 2013

Holiday happenings

I hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday season.  My Christmas was great but didn’t include any wild sex stories.  I did see my fuck buddy before he left to go back home, to Georgia…for good. 😦

I’m a little bit sad.  We’ve been having sex about once a month for nearly two years now.  I knew he was trying to sell his house, after getting out of the military, but last we’d discussed it, he was still looking to stay in this area.  It came as a surprise to hear he is leaving. 

He may come back to visit friends, and at least one relative here. He still has to get some stuff out of storage, so it’s possible I could see him again, but for the most part, this is the end.  I’m glad we didn’t really get emotionally attached.  Still, I am going to miss the reliable sex…and that huge, thick cock!!  OMG!  I bet it’ll be a looong time before I come across another one like that, if ever!

Our last meeting was pretty hot.  He was staying temporarily in a hotel and we had a couple rounds of fun, followed each time by me swallowing his cum.  My little parting gift. 😉  He was off the day after Christmas, but we plan to keep in touch.  He said he thinks I would really like Atlanta, lots of “successful black men” (damn, am I that transparent? haha ).  Who knows, maybe someday….  Plus after seeing a pic of him and his brothers down there, I am thinking a gangbang doesn’t sound so bad after all.  Heh…. 😉

Now who am I going to replace him with?  I’ve still got Mr. Firm, and the Host, and I guess this Bodybuilder guy, but they all live far away.  My fuck buddy was only an hour and a half.  It’s got me thinking…and today I even did a little browsing on Craigslist.

I didn’t have any luck on Craigslist today, but I did find something that has me cracking up and gloating like crazy!!  Remember the Producer?  He contacted me a few days before Christmas to say he hoped I was doing alright, and then again to wish me and the kids a Happy Holiday.  Then today, I get on CL and found his old ad!!!  Only he had changed it up just a little bit, to add in that he is “attached”.

Hahahahaha….he’s already looking to cheat on that woman he pretty much dumped me for!  I love it!  She was a condescending little bitch towards me.  Revenge is sweet.  What kills me is he made some comment in the ad, alluding to the fact that he is not getting as much sex as he would like.  Yeah, well, whose fault is that??  Bam!  Got them both, and in less than 3 months time.  Somehow I doubt that relationship is going to last forever. “We are soul mates”.  Give me a fucking break!

Supposedly she was cool with non-monogamy, but clearly that isn’t working out for them the way he thought, or he wouldn’t be sneaking around behind her back.  It’s obvious, from the wording of the ad, that he is.  I wouldn’t be half surprised if he tries to get back with me either, at this point.  I guess we will find out.

Damn though, right after Christmas?  And right after they went on a cruise together for their birthdays (or were supposed to, I am assuming they did).  Times must be hard. 😉 😀

Not only did HE contact me recently, but the guy I had the affair with!  Remember him?  The one who stood me up for a concert and never bothered to explain why?  He hit me up on Facebook email (we aren’t friends on there) to say “I miss you”.  I got Mr. Firm’s advice before saying anything and finally went with “fuck off”.  LOL  I was worried about upsetting him but Mr. Firm said I shouldn’t be with the way he disrespected me.  He didn’t comment back and it actually kind of felt good to stand up for myself like that.  On my own I tend to be way too forgiving.

I’ve STILL been having to ignore Mr. Motorcycle.  He left a box of gifts on my doorstep and tried texting several times to see if I got them.  I feel so mean ignoring him but I know if I give him even a little acknowledgement he will try and find a way to get back in.  As Mr. Firm pointed out, his using my kids and getting gifts for them to get to me, really is manipulative, and not a cool thing to do.  Especially after I TOLD him, flat out, repeatedly, that I didn’t want him to buy them anything. 

The gifts he gave were nothing expensive and I went ahead and let the kids open them as extras.  One was a board game that was missing pieces and looked like it had been used.  He gave me a bottle of wine and some sort of homemade soap.

The TV he gave us?  That short circuited and almost electrocuted my teenager.  He and a friend got the bright idea to smash it up after that, and take the copper out of the back.  It could have been dangerous but thankfully they didn’t grind up the glass and get lead poisoning or something.  I had to pay $60 to have it carted off as hazardous waste.  Gee, thanks for the “gift”.

The Referee has tried calling and texting me too, begging me to pick up the phone.  I ignored that as well.  I didn’t hear from him on Christmas though so maybe he’s getting the drift that I am serious.  No way Jose, will I ever get with him again.

Mr. Host has been cool though and says he bought me a gift, because he can’t stop thinking about me.  Nice!  I am looking forward to seeing him again.  The sex was just awesome!

He invited me to another party and I was a little disappointed in the guest list.  Mainly that he didn’t invite Mr. Firm. :/  Whhhyyy???  I hope he still ads him on.  I don’t think he would have been able to come anyhow, but it’s the principle of it all.  I hope it’s just that he is varying what single males come to each party or something.  It would really upset me if he was leaving him out due to ME or doesn’t like him.

See, I’m a little afraid that he is going to be like all these other guys I have come across and start acting possessive.  Or that he might see Mr. Firm as a threat because my excitement about him being invited the first time was probably pretty obvious.  Plus, he may have seen us kissing a few times at the party and I doubt you could miss the passion there. 😉

I really hope that isn’t it.  Mr. Firm is cool as hell, has had nothing negative to say about Mr. Host so far, and I know he was excited about having been invited to that last party.  He also took the time and trouble to validate Mr. Host and say nice things.  I wouldn’t want him to be left out on account of me and I’d really like him to be at some future parties if I am going to be there.  I’m a little afraid to bring it up to Mr. Host though.  Like, if I make too big a deal of it he may just decide never to invite him again.  Ugh.

Looking over the guest list, there seem to be less single guys, so maybe it is just something to do with that.  :/  The whole thing has my brain spinning. I usually tell Mr. Firm about parties and had mentioned the date of the upcoming one, so I’d feel weird never mentioning it, like I was keeping something from him.  I’d feel like a jerk though, talking about it when he wasn’t invited.  Grrrr…

I haven’t heard from the Professor. 😦 We talked a little bit on his birthday earlier in the month and he was kind of weird. He made comments about how he missed me and that he wasn’t getting any sex for his B’day, but didn’t want me to come over (“to say hi”, I didn’t flat out offer him sex). I told him I’m not at the point anymore where I think the relationship thing would even be an issue, basically hinting at just some NSA sex, but he said it was HIM that had the problem handling it and not me. Okay, whatever.

Anyhow, wish me luck on replenishing the ranks.  I’ve got some possible upcoming changes in my life as well.  I’m seriously considering a move to the big city myself.  There aren’t a lot of things holding me back at this point and 2014 may be just the time to get up on it.

The orgy weekend culminates (part 3)

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Okay, so when I left you, I was stuck at my grandma’s house, with a broken down vehicle.  Don’t worry though, I still managed to squeeze in some more sexual escapades.  😉  Bet you’d like to know how.

While I was having all these issues and trying to figure out what to do, I was getting texts from a guy I had met at the last swinger party.  He’s a 24 year old, very nice looking, biracial, bodybuilder.  He just got out of the military and is currently working as a bouncer at a nightclub, as well as working on his bodyguard license.  At the party, he’d had trouble getting it up, due to it being his first swinging experience, and he REALLY wanted to prove to me that he’s not always that way, lol.

It was actually kind of annoying because I was trying to get stuff done and when family heard I was in town, of course, they wanted to see me.  I have siblings there and they were like, what are you doing sneaking into town without telling anyone??  Thankfully, my family is not very nosy.  They didn’t press much as to what I was doing.   I just said I was at a party in the city.

God, sometimes I really get homesick.  I’ve been thinking for a long time I would like to move back up that way.  Maybe I’ll be able to make it happen here eventually, it would be nice to be close to people that could help me in times of need.  I really don’t have anyone here, now that I am divorced. 

My grandmother still lives in the same place she did when I was coming up.  It’s a mostly black neighborhood and the community is so different from where I am now.  Some people might consider it a “bad” area, but to me it never really felt that way.  Even though the people are poor, there was always someone there to help you out if you needed it.

My memories are full of summer parties in the street outside her house.  Parents, grandparents, teenagers and young ones all running around, dancing and drinking.  BBQ’s, people sitting out on their porches and always available to talk.  Being one of the only white kids in the neighborhood, strangely, I never really felt out of place.  Even now, I love that the neighbors look out for and help my grandma.  You don’t see a whole lot of that here.

I spent much of the afternoon with my sister’s friend’s dad, a dark skinned, black man in his mid 60’s with BLUE eyes.  I was like where’d you get those eyes and he said his great grandfather was Irish and Indian (Native).  He said my baby sister is like a daughter to him and that I drive just like she does, hotrodding it, lol.  He was getting onto me and later I was getting onto him because he told me he refuses to get a vasectomy because of his age but that he also doesn’t wear condoms when he is playing around.  No idea how we got to talking about that!  lol  At the store, when we were buying transmission fluid, we ran into one of his cronies, an older white guy, who thought I was his girlfriend.  He was like, NO, she’s like my daughter!  Haha

Anyhow, my vehicle is shot, but by the time we’d taken care of that and I’d run over to one of my sisters houses for a bit, and showered, it was getting really late.  Mr. Bodybuilder wanted to come to town and hang out anyway.  He said we could go for a movie or out to eat.  I’m thinking it might even be too late for that (it was nearly 10 pm). 

Meanwhile, I had realized that I left one of my favorite bras at Mr. Host’s house.  Dammit!  He wasn’t bothered though.  He said if you come and get it you can stay the night. 

Hmmm…that would also put me near Mr. Bodybuilder.   I talked to my grandma a bit and it was decided I would take her car to drive back home. She was cool with me heading back out to stay in the city that night.  I warned Mr. Host I might be pretty late but he said that was cool, as long as I was staying over.

Mr. Bodybuilder and I decided to go out to eat.  We talked and hung out for awhile and then he said maybe he could get a hotel.  I was thinking, there is no way I want him to spend $$ on that, when I will have to jet fairly quickly, in order to get over to Mr. Host’s, but I didn’t tell him why.  I just said I would have to leave before too long and maybe that wasn’t a good idea.

He is currently staying with his sister, on her couch, lol, as he JUST got out of the military and hasn’t had a chance to get settled with his own place.  He says he doesn’t want to waste his money on a crappy home when he can earn a little more and get something better. 

We decided we would just go over there, but I’d have to be really quiet because she and her boyfriend (and toddler) would be asleep.  Oh man, this felt like high school all over again, haha, sneaking in someone’s place, but…okay.

We slipped in the front door quietly and onto the screened in back porch. It was cold. I’m thinking seriously?  What am I just going to bend over?  No, he had another plan.  He wanted me to sit on this tiny little nightstand.  It looked like it could easily tip over, but I did.

I sat there and he had me pull down my pants.  They are like legging style and I was wearing knee length leather boots.  Not conducive to this AT ALL, lol.  I had to put my legs over his head.  He went down on me for a little bit and then put in his very hard dick.  We fucked with me on the table with my legs around him, to where he was kind of trapped.

We kept hearing noises and he told me to keep an eye out for shadows on the wall in the kitchen.  Suddenly, someone turned on a light.  We jumped and I almost fell over, lol.  Had to get my legs up over his head and hobble around the corner to pull on my clothes.  We were trying not to knock into stuff.  Whoever it was, wasn’t there long.  The light went back out.

By then we decided we’d better head outside.  We snuck through the backyard and the high heel of my boot caught in a hole in the ground in the dark.  I fell and banged up my knee pretty badly on some cement.  He kept apologizing and we went to sit in his car.

It was getting really late and I was afraid if I took too long Mr. Host would fall asleep, leaving me nowhere to stay for the night.  Mr. Bodybuilder kept pushing to continue our fun and saying we could go at it in the backseat of his car.  I opted out, citing my knee and it being really late.  He reluctantly said okay but that he thought I was really hot, that this was exciting and he wants to see me again.  He said normally he doesn’t even like women with kids but thought I was in great shape.

Alright, alright, that was nice but I had to go.  I took off and headed to Mr. Host’s.  He had been lying down for a bit but managed to get up and answer the door, despite it being 2 am. 

Oh, WOW, am I glad I went back over there!!  We got in bed and proceeded to have some seriously hot sex, over and over, like ALL night long.  He came in me about 5 times before having to get up for work in the morning.  I actually made him like 45 minutes late but he said that’s okay because he’s the boss. 😉

I was really surprised at how good the sex was with him!!  I wasn’t expecting that at all.  It was like fireworks!!  I don’t know if it was just because I was sooo horny or what!!  I WAS ovulating, according to my little calendar on my phone, where I keep track of my menstrual cycle.

He was very dominant and got pretty rough.  He was pulling my hair, choking me, biting my neck,smacking my ass, you name it!  This is the same guy, who at dinner with that one woman had agreed with her that he could never choke someone in bed!  His hand was probably on my neck like half the time we were fucking!! He must have really took what I said about kind of liking it to heart. 😉 😉

Wow, in the morning he even got out this wedge shaped pillow and had me bend over it to where he could really penetrate deep. It felt good and the whole thing was really damn hot! He has been texting me for the past couple days going on about how freaking good it was! It almost took my mind off Mr. Firm, but not quite, he’s still hot as hell. 🙂

Mr. Host is now saying he’d like to take me to a bed and breakfast sometime, where we can fuck all day and all night and do nothing else. Sounds like fun. I’ll have to keep you all updated. 😉

 

 

 

 

The orgy party continues, part 2

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Okay so where did we leave off?  I was having the threesome with the two security guys and they left the room.  Then in walks their cousin, Mr. Host.  He came to chat for just a minute and to let me know he had made sure to keep me well taken care of with security guys looking after me.  Why…yes…

So he was happy to see I was feeling a little better and started to pull out his cock for a blow job but then thought better of it.  He said he wanted to wait until I was back up to par, kissed me and left the room.  Fine then.  A couple minutes later the older man returned. 

He got me to get up out of bed and follow him into another room where he said there was some fun going on.  Inside were about 4 people having, or close to having, sex.  One was his wife, then another couple whose wife was in the middle of being done doggystyle by Mr. Host. His wife asked him if he wanted this other guy fucking her before allowing him to.  I didn’t see quite what went on between them but I think he got up and left and went back over to help with HIS wife and Mr. Host.

The older man lead me over to his wife who was now unattended and guided me to her pussy.  She is 27 and he is 30 years older, Mr. Firm and I had been discussing that while I was getting dressed in his hotel room.  Anyhow, I went to work and the older man was rubbing on and playing with me at the same time.  Eventually he left, and the people next to us on the bed left and it was only me and her.  She asked if I wanted a turn and I lay on the bed while she licked and fingered me. 

Meanwhile people were walking by and eventually the guy who had been close to fucking her came back.  He got on me and started rubbing, but not entering me, while telling me how fucking gorgeous he thinks I am. She left and her husband came back by. I gave him a 30 second blowjob before he came all over my face.  He walked out of the room and the other guy was like WTF and followed me to the bathroom while I washed off.

Then he followed me back into the master bedroom.  He was on top of me and wanting to fuck, but asking me if it was okay.  I found that kind of annoying and a turnoff.  He was like “are you sure it’s okay?” “can I touch you?” “you are so beautiful”.  He had a nice looking, thick hard cock but he also wanted to go in without a condom.  I didn’t want him to and he said without it he cant stay hard.  He kept grinding on top of me.  This was the only white guy all night, by the way, lol.  I ended up giving him a bit of a blowjob but didn’t finish him off.

Okay, so now its getting really late and everyone is ready to go to bed.  Suprisingly, the older guy and his wife had decided to sleep in the bed with Mr. Host and I.  When he (the older man) came up behind me and started spooning me, I thought he was joking.  I made a comment to that effect, and his wife, who had just walked in, seemed a little peeved.  I didn’t mean to be rude or anything, just wasn’t expecting to share a bed with three people!

Anyhow, she climbed in on the other side of me and Mr. Host was next to her.  Her husband was trying to get me to put my hand on her bare ass but I was honestly exhausted and wanting to sleep.  Not that it was easy with three people lying next to me, plus being in between a husband and wife.  I know that she has been fucking Mr. Host for awhile because he told me she gets jealous and that was kind of weird and awkward too.  She and him were kissing a bit but he seemed annoyed with her laying her head on him.

Finally, Mr. Host told her to let me over by him and sleep next to her own husband.  She complied but her husband was reaching over her trying to touch me and I think it was getting her annoyed.  Gah!  Mr. Host was stroking my hair and whispering to me that I am his angel and he wants to take care of me.  I was thinking wtf, you don’t want to fuck me though??  After awhile the wife said her back was hurting and decided to get up and sleep in a chair.  Eventually, they just left and went home.  It was maybe 5:30 am.

It was still a restless night.  I am not one to cuddle people I don’t know and especially ones I haven’t had sex with.  So while Mr. Host’s touches felt good, it was hard for me to sleep.  Plus he kept having to jump up for things like the alarm going off when another couple walked downstairs or helping with a guy who fell asleep on the toilet.

I woke up around 7:30 to Mr. Host poking his dick in behind me.  I rolled onto my stomach and we had some actually pretty good doggystyle sex.  He wasn’t wearing a condom and asked if he could come inside me.  I was like NOOOOO and he asked if I am fertile.  I told him yes and he said he got a vasectomy 15 years ago and has been checked many times to make sure it stuck.  Okay, you can cum in me. 

OMG that part was hot.  I am a little bit of a cum fiend…I just freaking love it and I get so excited about a guy about to cum inside me since it doesn’t happen very often.  He made me cum a few times too and it was pretty darn hot.

So afterwards I showered and got ready to head out.  Right before I did, I texted Mr. Firm again to see what was up.  He was going to check out of his hotel in 30 minutes but said I could come by and talk.  We wouldn’t have time for sex but I was excited to swap stories and hear how his night had been.

I kissed Mr. Host goodbye and got in my vehicle.  At first it wouldn’t start.  I was relieved to get it going but couldn’t figure out what was wrong.  It was going slow and hard to get up to speed.  I was scared it was going to die on me.  Thankfully I made it the 10 minutes or so to the hotel.

Got there and had a great chat with Mr. Firm and told him about my van.  He said I should follow him back just in case, since my family lives 30 minutes from the city we were in, and he is another 30 minutes past that.  I am SO GLAD he was there.  On the busy freeway my van started having even more problems and I turned on my hazard lights, hoping I wouldn’t get hit by a semi.  Mr. Firm pulled over and I followed him to a gas station.  There he figured out that the transmission fluid was gone and there was smoke coming out of where you are supposed to put it in. 

He helped me put some transmission fluid in and it seemed to be doing better but still not up to par.  We got back on the road though and I was able to make it home to my grandmother’s house.  The whole time he was just awesome and patient and not upset with me for making him late to get home to his family. I’m telling you he is a really incredible guy. 🙂

Got to grandma’s and thankfully there are family and friends there to help out with things.  It was Sunday but the father of one of my sister’s friends came to look over my van and said the transmission is bad.  Still working on either replacing that or getting a new vehicle.  In the meantime I was stuck an extra night but my grandma said I could use her car.

Believe it or not, I had a lot more sex this weekend. Looks like my library time is running out again but don’t worry, there will be a part 3 to this story!! 😉

 

 

 

 

Orgy party, part 1

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I had quite the fuckfest this weekend. 🙂  Unfortunately my computer is still giving me problems and so I am at the library with only time for a short write up.   I’ll try to make it brief.

My second house party was this weekend.  I was invited by a man I will refer to as Mr. Host.  He’s got an office job that he does from home as well as a job in security where he is some sort of manager.  He is the one I went out on a date with, with a couple where he was here to have sex with the wife, but who had yet to try and fuck me.  He had suggested I help him out with his parties by assisting in greeting people and possibly joining his couples profile (I haven’t agreed to do that but he wanted me to think about it). 

Anyhow, he wired me some gas money to come up there and added in a little extra for food and liquor.  In total, because he ended up helping me with gas on my way home, he gave me $100.  He had also said if I showed up early enough before the party he would take me to buy a Santa outfit to wear from Victoria’s Secret. 

Unfortunately (well, it ended up being rather fortunately) I was unable to make it by the time he suggested.  Instead, I opted to meet Mr. Firm at his hotel beforehand.  Whooo, am I glad I did that!  OMFG that man can fuck!!  We actually had the hotel front desk person call and then knock on the door, due to a noise complaint, lmao.  :::: Blushing :::  but it’s his fault ;).

God, he is soooo good, and I couldn’t say enough things about how wonderful and perfect he is, in every way.  He’s like the most awesomest fwb any woman could ever hope for.  Sooo glad I met him!!  Not only is he my second favorite sex of all time, but he’s just cool as hell as a person.  He gives the best advice, he’s honest and knows how to set boundaries and make me feel comfortable with things.  He’s been in the lifestyle for like 9 years or more, so I’m sure that helps.

There were at least two other women (wives) that had contacted him prior to the party and wanted to meet (fuck) him.  He let me know about this upfront and told me exactly how he would act towards me at the party.  He said he would flirt with me and probably fuck me and dance together and that if things got uncomfortable with staying at the host house, I could come to his hotel with him.  Then he also let me know that he would probably fuck these other women too and maybe have a couple back to his hotel at some point.  He just wanted to be sure I knew that.  I really LIKE it when a guy is honest with me like that because it helps me to be mentally prepared for what may happen and then I can handle it all.

At one point I did kind of question him about how he was going to be able to handle it.  I asked if all these women wanted to fuck him, if he thought he’d really be up to the task.  He was like “I’ll eat my Wheaties” which made me bust out laughing.  I’m telling you, he is really my kind of guy, and smart too! Of course he’s taken and totally unavailable for more than a fwb thing but he doesn’t lead me on about that or anything either. 

I think it was a really good move to have me with him at the hotel first.   He fucked the hell out of me and I would have been happy as a clam if that was all the sex I got.  He later said the same thing, it would have made him happy enough too, but we both ended up having some other fun. 😉

I showered in his hotel room and then headed off to the party.  He told me he’d be fashionably late, an hour or so later, and did exactly as he promised. 

At the door were some security guys who turned out to be cousins of the host.  They weren’t there from the swinger website and Mr. Host said they were more there to keep an eye on things than to play, but they could and might later on.  I thought they were kind of hot and could tell they liked me too.

Mr. Host got me set up with a wine glass (everyone else was drinking out of plastic cups) and my wine I had bought with the money.  He told me to greet people and flirt and have fun.  So, I flitted about like a little social butterfly and did just that.  It was actually kind of fun not having a guy with me because I was free to talk to pretty much anyone without any worries. 

When Mr. Firm arrived we didn’t spend a lot of time together, but I’d walk by him and we’d stop and kiss for a little bit, or he’d grab my ass and wink or something and we’d smile at each other.  I bragged on him a little bit to a couple of other women and one of them agreed.  She’d apparently fucked him before too, but I can’t even remember who it was. 

I know the other lady was the one who had called me a bitch and gone out with the Referee at the last party.  I made up with her too.  I went up to her and was nice and told her not to worry about all that stuff and that I loved her dress, was girlfriend chatty with her and hugged her and stuff. She seemed relieved.  What can I say, when I get to drinking I am usually super friendly and touchy feely with people.

What’s funny is that she later validated Mr. Firm and said she hopes to see him again.  He said he’d only briefly even spoken to her and I said it must have been my reference, ha! Everyone else seemed really nice and Mr. Motorcycle never showed up. 
I danced on the pole in the basement for awhile, though it was thicker than a “real” pole so a little harder to do, lol. I was feeling great.

Unfortunately, by around 10 pm I had drunk over a bottle and a half of 10% alcohol wine and was not feeling so hot.  I went into a back room and the security guys helped me change clothes into a bustier and garter and g-string but I suddenly felt too dizzy to get up.  I ended up on the floor of the bathroom feeling sick (though I never threw up or anything) and they carried me to the master bed, where I passed out for like 4 hours.

Mr. Firm said a lot more people came to the party and there were some threesomes and foursomes but he didn’t do that this time.  He did say he played some but didn’t specify with who.  He says he had fun and that he had gone back and seen me out cold once on the bed.  When I woke up he was gone and when I tried to text he was already asleep. (He said no one had come back to his hotel). 

I was still dizzy but had gotten up and walked through the house to see who was still around.  There were a few couples and single women lingering, as well as the security guys, but it was 2 am.  I lay down on the bed and an older man who had been checking on me from time to time came in.  He saw I was feeling better and said he wanted to make me enjoy myself.  He pulled aside my panties and started licking.  Holy hell, he was good with his tongue! 

He started fingering me and it was feeling really good but I was still dizzy.  He stopped and said that was just a preview of what would come later, winked and walked out of the room.  5 seconds later, in walks two of the security dudes.  They saw me lying there looking better and obviously a little bit horny.  One guy said he thought I was the hottest woman there and he’d been waiting for this all night.  They had been coming in to check on me and giving me drinks of ice water and making sure I was okay from time to time because Mr. Host had asked them too. 

Earlier in the night these guys had joked with me that they come as a “packaged deal”.  Well, yeah.  They are cousins and I fucked the one and gave the other a blow job, at the same time.  I was still dizzy so ended up being on my side for a bit, but the one guy I blew came all over my chest and the other one finished up in the condom he was wearing.  He was like “damn that pussy is good, I’m definitely going to come here and see you again”.  Then they left.

Damn…this is just the beginning but I have to get off the library computer.  They close in 5 min.  To be continued…..

 

 

 

Thoughts on submission

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Lately I’ve been pondering some things about dominance and submission.  Now, before you get too excited, realize I’ve never considered myself as a part of the BDSM community.  I really don’t know a whole lot about it, just read little bits here and there. 

I find it somewhat fascinating but at the same time scary sounding.  I’m not fond of being in pain or hurting anyone so that part doesn’t sound appealing to me.  I see things like floggers, electric shockers, and nipple clamps and I’m thinking OMG, no, not for me!

I had a chance to talk with a male friend once who had gone to his very first BDSM convention.  He talked about some of the workshops and about people who wore latex masks over their heads and all kinds of things I had never heard of (at the time) that were happening.  It was very interesting, but for me pretty much stopped there. 

That’s not to say I’m not curious.  I’m curious about things like what it would be like to be tied up or blindfolded.  I wonder just how much spanking I could handle (I do like that!).  All in all, my thoughts about it are pretty tame, compared to what I know is out there, and I’ve probably only scratched the surface as far as reading and learning about BDSM.

I find the idea of power play a little more intriguing than the pain aspect.  I’ve experienced some of that with my lovers and it has turned me on.  Some things that come more naturally, and don’t require props or safewords, have been part of my sex life on many of occasions. 

I’ve always been really turned on by men that are very dominant in bed.  Not mean though, it doesn’t excite me when someone calls me names or gets overly rough.  No, I like them passionate in an almost romantic way in the bedroom.  Passionate and in control, but still very affectionate and focusing on getting ME off, rather than their own selfish desires, that will get satisfied in the end anyhow.

I guess that’s a pretty tall order.  Maybe I am spoiled because I have found men who have been able to give me that very thing.  As few and far between as they may be, I’m becoming more adroit at identifying those that can satisfy the cravings of my mind and body. 

Recently, when I was having dinner with a man I have met at some swinger parties and a couple he was here visiting; the topic of choking came up.  None of them found it to be a sexual turn on.  I said that I had thought I never would either, but when it actually happened during sex, it turned me on much more than expected.  They looked at me like I’d grown another head!  LOL

Yet, it’s true.  I had always thought I would hate being choked during sex.  I was terrified of the idea.  Yet the first time a man did it to me in the bedroom, I came.  It was actually right before I met the married man who made me cum so many times in a row and it was mild in comparison, but it happened.  It was with my FWB who does have a tendency to like a little roughness between the sheets. When I told Mr. Firm of our dinner conversation he laughed and said a lot of women say one thing but in bed like another. He was like “I could tell you liked that”.

It calls to mind memories of the guy who was my very favorite sex partner as a teenager.  We hated each other’s guts!  Pretty much anyway, lol.  Yet, the sex was addicting.  We’d come back to fucking again and again, despite the way we treated one another outside the bedroom. 

I’ve mentioned him a few times on my blog.  The first time we had sex it was actually forced and as part of a bunch of guys pulling a train on me, one that I didn’t want to participate in.  I had willingly slept with the first guy but HE was the 2nd, the one who got on top of me and wouldn’t get off or allow me to get dressed.  He wouldn’t take no for an answer and slowly inched his way in, despite my protests, all while confusing me even more with the things he was whispering in my ear.

 Despite the fact that I was adamant about not wanting to have sex with him, he was deliberately turning me on.  He knew what he was doing and I can guarantee that wasn’t the only time he’s done it.  It happened again, a second time, where they pulled a train on me and he was again the person that pushed it.  The first time we were in a park and the police showed up before the guys scattered and the second we were in a house and I was alone in a room on the couch with the other guy before he came in. 

Those were actually fairly traumatic experiences for me emotionally but like I have said before I continued to have sex with him.  Outwardly, I couldn’t stand this guy.  I couldn’t stand his asshole attitude (I even call him The Asshole in one of my blog posts, My Deep, Dark Past).  He was a real jerk and we would be at each other’s THROATS in arguments. 

I can remember one time, being at a party in this guy’s backyard and we got into it.  We were yelling and cussing at one another over something and he suddenly picked me up off the ground and started walking.  I was actually a little scared of what he was about to do.  He picked me up and carried me down those basement steps, stopping to pretend he was going drop me every once in a while, causing me to scream and hang onto his neck. 

When we got to the bed, he threw me on it and started pulling off my clothes.  I didn’t say no that time but he took exactly what he wanted and it got a little rough.  He was shoving my face down on the pillow and at some point a couple guys came down and were watching.  It was hot!! 😉  LOL

There was another time we had been dropped off at this Mexican drug dealer’s house and were stuck there all night.  All the bedrooms were occupied and he and I were in the living room, fighting like cats and dogs.  One of the Mexican guys finally came out of his room and threw a pair of boxing gloves at us, telling us to shut up already and just duke it out.  Haha.

Later, some really creepy, crackhead looking motherfuckers with missing teeth came to the house and we were stuck with them too, in the living room.  They were adults and we were still really kids and these guys were leering and hitting on me.  I was scared, but The Asshole actually stood up for me, backed me up against the wall behind him and was cussing them out and threatening them. 

We ended up having sex after that, on the floor in another room and all the tension was relieved.  He let me sleep up next to him, with his arm out across me to ward off the bad guys, lol. 😉 He’s really not all that bad, though he did spend some years in prison after being tried as an adult for holding up someplace with a gun, soon after.

The day before that happened was the last time I ever touched him.  He came up behind me, while I was standing in a front yard at this guy’s house and put me in a choke hold with a loaded gun up against my head.  He said “don’t move or I’ll shoot”.  I said “you wouldn’t shoot me”.  He cocked the gun and pulled his arm tighter around my throat “say I won’t!!”  I said “you’d miss me too much” and he was like “say I won’t do it” and looked me in the eye. I said “do it then” and turned my cheek toward him. He stood there. “Come on then, do it! I dared him. He kind of smirked and put down the gun.  I could tell by the look in his eyes he could never go through with that ;). 

He’s on my Facebook now and he’s married and life has changed, but I told that story to illustrate how early on in life I was already getting off a little bit on a power exchange dynamic.  It was hot!!  He was great in bed for how young we were and despite being rather forceful would turn into an almost totally different person with the passion and affection and things he would say to me (he loved to talk during sex).

Nowadays I have come to realize just how much I ENJOY a man taking control in the bedroom and that feeling of helplessness.  All of my favorite men have at some point called me “really submissive”.  I hope, and think, that means they like it!  LOL  My ex- husband sure didn’t, because he was the same way. 

I’ve struggled a bit, with the whole being submissive thing, because I know I am and that naturally that is just me.  However, so many people seem to equate it with weakness.  If I’m honest I would say that actually in a way I do too.  My ex husband’s submissiveness was a total turn off to me.  I didn’t want a man to act weak in the bedroom. 

So I wonder, if men really even like that?  I sometimes feel like I am not DOING anything and wonder why men still say I am good in bed.  Do some people actually enjoy and LIKE it when someone is letting them call all the shots?  I know there are guys that do, it’s just so hard for me to picture being on the other end of that.

Mr. Firm always says I fuck him just the way he “needs”.  I love that he tells me that but am a little puzzled by what he actually means.  I find HIM very fulfilling because he is that perfect combination of dominant and sweet and he can make me cum again and again.  I’m quite happy to be on the receiving end of all that, lol. 😉

He said recently that I am so submissive he can’t picture me being dominant, even with another woman.  I had to think about that for a minute because I am pretty sure I wouldn’t want to be, but at the same time the idea of submitting to another female kind of gives me a pause.  I don’t think I would want to!  Not really.  I have an inkling that if a woman started trying to tell me what to do in bed it would piss me off!   I’m happier and more comfortable with something equal.

I think the reason it is different with men has something to do with just loving to see all that masculine POWER.  I don’t desire that from a woman.  I love when a guy can just take me and do whatever he wants, but where I trust him enough to know he also wouldn’t really hurt me.

From me, I guess I’d also say submission to someone is a gift.  I don’t act like that with just anyone.  I mean, I don’t boss any guy around in the bedroom, but for me to actively and willingly “submit” there has to be trust involved.  Still, that is where I am at my happiest.  If I can’t get to that point with a man then the sex doesn’t become truly spectacular.

I’m curious to hear from men or women who LOVE being dominant in bed.  What is it that turns you on about a person submitting to you?  When I try to dig up info from that side of the spectrum, there is very little, even on the world wide web!  Lots of people can describe what they love about someone dominating them but what about in reverse?  Why do you like it?  Is there anything a “submissive” person can do to make you like it even more?

I feel the love surrounding me….

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Ooooooh baby, Between My Sheets has announced the Top 100 Sex Bloggers of 2013 and guess who is one of them??!! Yours truly is number 74!!  I’m once again on cloud 9 that my blog is considered to be among one of the best!!  Thank you Rori! 😀  I’m so glad you enjoy what you have read here! I’m really liking what I see over there at Between My Sheets as well. 😉

Also, a special thank you to Z over at Pervertically Virtuous for nominating me!  If you STILL haven’t checked out her blog after my repeated recommendations, you need to!  You’ll sit there, just riveted, reading about her experiences. 

I’m looking over this list and seeing some blogs I know and love among ones that I have never checked out but that sound really intriguing.  I can’t wait to run over and read some of them.  I’ll post the list here in case any of you are interested in doing the same.  🙂

And now, without further ado, your 2013 Top Sex Bloggers list:

1. Lady Pandorah from Lady Pandorah’s Sanctuary @ladypandorah
2. Jerome from Let’s Talk About Sex @NotJeromeStuart
3. EA from Easily Aroused @EasilyAroused
4. Anna Sansom from The Lady Garden Project @ladygarden69
5. Violet Blue from Tiny Nibbles @violetblue
6. Dick and Jane from Dick-n-Jane  
7. Kara from Kara Sutra Reviews @Kara_Sutra
8. Lauralyn from Big Ugly Pix  
9. Remittance Girl from Remittance Girl @remittancegirl
10. Dorothy Black from The Dot Spot @dorothyblack
11. Monocle, Redbud, and Ximena from The Erotic Writer @_Monocle_ and @_Ximena_Writes_
12. Penny from Penny for Your (Dirty) Thoughts @pennysblog
13. Lauren from Queerie Bradshaw @QueerieBradshaw
14. MsQuote from A Good Woman’s Dirty Mind @GoodDirtyWoman
15. littlesubmissions from Little Submissions  
16. Blacksilk from Being Blacksilk @BlacksilkBlog
17. Conina from Exploring Surrender  
18. SGC from Submissive Guy Comics @SGCposts
19. Shelby Cross from Shelby Cross, Writer @Shelby_Cross
20. N. Likes from My Dissolute Life @nlikes
21. Jayne from Diary Incarnate  
22. John from John D. Stories @johndstories
23. Z from Pervertically Virtuous @VirtuousPervert
24. LS&M from Love, Sex & Marriage  
25. Bre from Owned, Collared, Loved @Pandasproperty
26. Hyacinth Jones from A Dissolute Life Means… @adissolutelife
27. Santha Smith from Secretly Sensuous @SSensuous
28. Ruby Ryer from Pegging Paradise @Ruby_Ryder
29. Charlie Glickman from Charlie Glickman @charlieglickman
30. Cliff from The Pervocracy @pervocracy
31. Marie Rebelle from Rebel’s Notes @rebelsnotes
32. Renee Rose from Renee Rose Romance @ReneeRoseAuthor
33. Lady Cheeky from Smut for Smarties @LadyCheeky
34. The Sin Doll from The Sin Doll @TheSinDoll
35. Cheeky Minx from Love Hate Sex Cake @LoveHateSexCake
36. Seamus from The Wistful Sinner  
37. Athol Kay from Married Man Sex Life  
38. Dangerous Lilly from This Could Be Dangerous @dangerouslilly
39. Lucas Brooks from Top To Bottom @Top2Bottom
40. Epiphora from Hey Epiphora @epiphora
41. Peroxide from Submissive in Seattle @Peroxide__
42. Axe from Unspeakable Axe @unspeakableaxe
43. Ferns from Domme Chronicles @Ferns__
44. Girl on the Net from Girl on the Net @girlonthenet
45. Joan Price from Better Than I Ever Expected @joanprice
46. Cammies from Cammies on the Floor @cammiesonfloor
47. Venice and Ryan from Fuck Blogging @fuckblogging
48. Kaya from Under His Hand  
49. Desi Dassi from Desi Dassi  
50. Jz from A Reluctant Bitch  
51. Cara from Cara Sutra @thecarasutra
52. Caitlin M. from Sexational! @sex_ational
53. Maggie Mayhem from Miss Maggie Mahem @msmaggiemayhem
54. Marian from Creative Noodling  
55. BD Swain from Leaning How To Tell You @redswain
56. Thumper from Denying Thumber @thumperMN
57. Panty Parade from Off Go The Panties  
58. Jade Melisande from Kink and Poly @piecesofjade
59. Will from Lusty Limerickets  
60. Mollena from The Perverted Negress @Mollena
61. Pyx from Syncopation  
62. Sadie Quinn from Sadie Quinn @ladybugsadey
63. Chris McC from Stranded in Toronto @stranded_in_to
64. Kayla Lords from A Sexual Being @KaylaLords
65. vulgarvag from Vuldar Vag @vulgarvag
66. Maggie from The Honest Courtesan @Maggie_McNeill
67. Shon Richards from Erotiterrorist @shonrichards
68. nilla from Vanillamom’s Blog @swirlednilla
69. Wordwytch from Adventures of a Word Wytch  
70. Anastassia from Diary of an Owned Slave @NatiraDarius
71. Dumb Domme from Dumb Domme @DumbDomme
72. Jill McDevitt from A Day in the Life of a Sexologist @sexologistjill
73. Fatal from You Linger Like a Haunting Refrain  
74. lifeofalovergirl from Life of a Lover Girl @lovergirlslife
75. Michael from Malflic @malflic
76. Mrs. Fever from Temperature’s Rising  
77. Tori from Pain’s Pleasure  
78. rougedmount from rougedmount  
79. Heather and Nikki from Vagina Antics @Heather_Cole1 and @Nikki_Blue1
80. Perverse Cowgirl from Hiding in Plain Sight  
81. Property of Potter from Property of Potter @pottersproperty
82. Anakin and padme from Journey to the Darkside @AnakinDarth and @padmeamidala
83. John Brownstone from Southern Sir’s Place  
84. Joe Johnstun from Sexy Little Ideas @joejohnstun
85. Hedone from The Pleasure Principle @pleasure_spot
86. Sangsara from Sexuality Sanctuary @sangsaraB
87. Shadow from Shadowed Seductress @ShadowedS
88. Gemma from Erotic Adventures @swinginggemma
89. TJ from TJ’s Take @tjthemadhatter
90. Scarlett Dubois from A True Unfolding @ATrueUnfolding
91. Adriana Ravenlust from of Sex and Love  
92. Ali from Ali’s Addiction @AlisAddiction
93. Jill from Naked All the Time @nakedjill
94. Emma from Dirty Little Whispers  
95. paltego from Femdom Resource  
96. Catherine Toyooka from Sex Spoken Here @Catcoaches
97. bilikesscifi from A Tale of Bi and Bi @bi_and_bi
98. Sarah from Marvelous Darling @marvydarling
99. mysticlez from Mystic’s Mind Fuck @mysticlez218

Congratulations to all of you and I’m so happy to be in such an awesome community of sex bloggers! It really is special to be singled out as one of the very top 100! Singing “It’s the Most Wonderful Time of the Year” as I sign out….

 

 

The “trophy” swinger….

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Last night I went out to dinner with a guy I have met a few times at parties.  He was visiting a couple here in town and invited me out with them.  He promised no sex, which was fine, since I’d just had some earlier in the day with my Fuck Buddy. 😉

Anyhow, I am not sure about this guy.  He seems really nice but maybe not my type.  He’s decent enough looking, though a little chubbier than I usually go for.  He also has a “country” way about him that is typical of this region but no so much of black men, lol.  It’s interesting.

So he invited me out to eat and I was cool with that.  He paid for me and the couple took care of their own bill.  We had a couple of drinks and laughed and talked.  I felt like she may have been uncomfortable with my presence in the beginning but I tried to make her feel at ease.  It was a little weird coming to dinner with them knowing they had been fucking earlier in the day and he’d just decided to bring me along.

The male half of the couple was very quiet and I could barely get him to look my direction.  He wasn’t particularly attractive and maybe he was just shy or felt I was out of his league.  I’m not sure, he could have just been uninterested, but then so was I.  He really only spoke briefly about football to the guy I was with and at one point I saw him show him a couple pictures he had taken earlier with his cell phone of his wife sucking the guy’s dick.

The wife seemed to warm up and was friendly but I’m not sure how much of it was real and how much was that fake thing that females sometimes do.  She said something about how we should get together sometime so I asked for her number and sent a text at dinner but she didn’t respond.  I was unsure how he presented my visit to them, so that part was a little awkward. 

He invited me to come over and hang at their house and watch the football game today but I politely declined.  He said it wouldn’t involve playing unless maybe he and I wanted to and I said that might be a little uncomfortable at their house. He laughed and said yeah.  So I thought it was probably best to avoid going over there. It was actually the first time he has been to visit this couple and I didn’t want to rain on their parade too much.

Anyhow, he is having a house party in a couple of weeks.  He had mentioned it before and maybe sent me an email but it went in one ear and out the other.  Maybe because I’d gotten another email around that time inviting me to a “bareback orgy party” and that was shocking enough that I didn’t think about the rest, haha!  Who does that???  That is probably a little too risky even for me! It involved things like naked twister and spin the bottle and “no condoms allowed”.  Whew….

His party was private and he showed me the guest list on his phone.  I saw that Mr. Firm was signed up and also Mr. Motorcycle and both had confirmed they are coming. I said I knew Mr. Firm and he said he had met him and he is a really cool guy.  When I saw him before I had been with Mr. Motorcycle and he asked if things were okay there and I said not so much.  He later asked more about that situation and promised if I come he will make sure things are secure and he doesn’t cause drama.

When I told the guy I wasn’t sure if I will be able to make it or not due to gas money and stuff he said that would be no problem, he will send me money to cover that.  He wasn’t the least perturbed when I told him last time it cost me $60 in gas to go that way either. He also said I could stay at his place. I’m assuming I wouldn’t have to pay the cover charge either.

I later texted Mr. Firm about it. He definitely plans on going.  I told him Mr. Motorcycle was signed up and he knows the deal with that too.  He didn’t comment on that but said “If you decide to go, I will be sure to dance with you and probably fuck, lol.  But wouldn’t try to be all over you so you couldn’t meet or hook up with someone else.  I would also introduce you to others I know or meet”.  I said I would try and do the same.  See, I told you he is awesome!! 🙂 

So today the party host contacts me again and asks me some more questions about Mr. Motorcycle and why we are no longer talking.  I explained a few things like the couple’s profile he opened without my permission and that I felt he wanted more of a relationship than I wanted to give.  I said I felt kind of like I was being used as bait to get other women.

I tell him all this then guess what he proposes to me??  He says he wants me to be his “trophy” and help him host his parties.  Apparently the woman he had the couples profile with and who I have seen him with before wanted more of a relationship than he did and he just wanted the profile to have parties with.  Suddenly he sees me as someone who would not be this way and thinks I would make a great partner to help him in his endeavor.  I guess eventually he plans to make money off of all this and open an actual club but for now wants to party in his house.

I’m a little confused about what all this would entail but he has mainly told me that I would just smile and be friendly to people and look cute.  He says he loves my smile and thinks I would attract a lot of people to his parties.  Really?  After I’d just told him I felt “used” as bait by someone??  Haha.  I find it more amusing than offensive though.

What men often don’t seem to get, and what I feel, is that women are not always jumping at the bit when guys use me to lure them in.  I think some of them actually feel threatened by me.  I’m a single, unattached woman and I’m not always feeling the love from them until I make a point of letting them know I’m not in it for the competition aspect. 

The thing I’m not sure on is if he is trying to get me to have a couples profile with him.  I told him maybe we should wait until I’ve at least gone to a party or two before I commit to anything like that but he still seems to be wanting something.  He said he and I wouldn’t even necessarily have to play together.  What??  Does that mean he doesn’t want to?  So odd… He is wanting to call me and talk about it in a few minutes here when I leave the library.