Archive | June 2013

Plans interrupted

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The Pilot continues to be awesome and we had plans this weekend but I ended up having to cancel on him.  I was so disappointed, and worried that he would think it was that I am not interested or had decided to spend my time with someone else and was ditching him at the last moment.  Fortunately he seemed to take it pretty well. 

What happened is that my ex- husband called at the last minute saying he’d gotten an opportunity to make some money in another city this weekend and he would no longer be able to take the kids tonight.  UGH!  I made him promise that if he makes extra money he sends some to us.  He’s thousands of dollars behind on child support and even though his wages are garnished I don’t get the full amount we are supposed to each month. 

So, I should get something out of it but still it’s never fun to have plans cancelled.  We had scoped out the parties in both of our areas and decided there wasn’t anything that sounded fun enough to attend but I was going to drive up to see him and we were planning to put out a posting on the swinger site to see if any other couples wanted to hook up with us.  Otherwise we would just have some one on one good times ;).

He later admitted that he was shorter than usual on funds and that he would have been able to cover the hotel and my gas and whatever we were going to do but it would have been a stretch.  I think it’s kind of sweet that he was going to do it anyhow, lol. I guess that is a good indication that he likes me…enough to break the bank to get me to come visit, haha.  He’s mentioned before that he has this huge payment on a piece of land he is buying but it will all be paid off in a couple of months.

Anyhow, next weekend we may not get together either.  I’m due for my period soon and that could ruin the fun.  So it looks like another long wait before seeing the Pilot.  Makes for more anticipation though, right?  Gotta look on the bright side…

Meanwhile, he brought up a couple on the swinger site to me.  He has never spoken with them but had seen them around and said he thought they looked like they could be a good match for us to play with.  We’d been talking about finding another interracial couple, and they fit the bill and are in their early 30’s and attractive.

 I’d seen their pics before and sure enough they had emailed me previously but I never responded. I suck at returning emails to people on the swinger site.  Mainly, because I’m just not THAT interested in being a 3rd with a couple.  Anyhow they had told me their names and sent their regular email address.

So we decided that I would shoot them an email and ask if they would be interested in hanging out in a couple of weeks.  They responded, saying they really liked both of our profiles so it is quite possible we will all end up playing eventually.  To be continued…. 😉

The Pilot so far seems cool about stuff like this.  He, unlike the Professor, actually seems to want to be fair and make sure that I am also interested in the guy if we are going to have a four-way.  When we were discussing possibly putting out a notice on the site for this weekend I commented that he’d probably like a single girl if we didn’t match up with a couple and he asked if I might be interested in a single guy too.  I said I’d be cool with it either way and he didn’t act threatened at all, which is good.  You never know with guys but if he’s down with a MFM threesome sometime….yeah, I might be able to swing that, lol.

In the meantime, the Producer has been texting me constantly.  He’s obviously pretty into me but I’m not really feeling it.  He asked me to rate the sex with him on a scale of 1-10 and be honest.  I dodged the question.  How the hell am I supposed to respond to that?

Not to mention he kept texting me while I was shopping with a bunch of kids and when I tried to explain that he didn’t stop!  I guess when you don’t have kids of your own you don’t get it but yeah, I had a million and one things going on at once.  I was upset about the cancellation with the Pilot and the PMS doesn’t help. 

My day was just one thing wrong after another and I had so much to do but my kids wanted to set off fireworks in the driveway.  It was getting late and I realized I might not make it to the gym.  I said “I was going to work out” and my 7 year old retorted “keep dreaming, buddy”.  😛  Fireworks it was….

While I am doing all this stuff the Producer is sending pictures of his “lawn” and how nicely it was mowed when he came home. producerhouse Just happened to get a shot of his house in the background….yeah… Clearly he has a nice house.  Is he trying to turn me into a golddigger or what?  LOL   I said “it’s gorgeous” and he said “just like you”….::::gag:::

I’ve always wondered what a single person does with that much house.  I think I’d feel especially lonely with all those rooms to walk into.  Not to mention it would be pretty creepy at night! However, if he has extra cash to throw around I don’t think I’d mind it being thrown at me.  Golddigging has never been my style, but yeah, it could be tempting…

He wants to see me again later this weekend but I can’t say I’m that excited about it.  I think if my fuck buddy is in town I’d rather hook up with him.  If nothing better presents itself though…maybe.

The Producer

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Last night I had sex with a man who was a Grammy Award winning producer.  He even showed me a Wikipedia article with his name in it. I double checked on Facebook and sure enough the name and picture matched.  I later talked with a male friend who lives in his city and he knows who this guy is. Kinda cool, I guess.  If you live in the U.S., I can guarantee you’ve heard the names of some of the artists he’s worked with, mostly rappers, but even some country music.

He’s not currently as involved in the music industry as he used to be.  According to him, his Brazilian ex- wife was extremely insecure and he moved away from all that to appease her.  Now he does some kind of marketing, which causes him to travel to a city about an hour and a half south of where I live for a few days each week.  On the weekends he is back up to a big city a few hours in the other direction, where he is from. 

In any case, I was actually kind of putting this guy off at first.  We met on Craigslist, of all places, lol and I was busy with plans with the Pilot and not all that excited about him.  I had responded to his ad and he seemed cool enough but some of his comments made me unsure. 

The main reason I responded was because of his description of sex which sounded hot and like he’d be really dominant in bed.  I made a mistake in thinking his ad had been placed in the casual encounters section when it was actually just the men for women.  During our first few conversations he brings up that he is looking for something more serious and I was like WTF?  Haha 

Thinking it was all about casual sex, I was surprised that he was asking me all kinds of questions about myself, like he was sizing me up for the long haul.  He made some comments that sounded a tad judgmental, like about not wanting to share his woman with anyone else and not risking his “dick falling off”.  Then he goes on to tell me how he did also have a casual ad placed, one where he was hooking up occasionally with couples, having sex with the wife.  Can we say “Madonna/whore”?

Add that he kept talking about how none of the women around here seemed to be able to suck his dick well enough, that they scraped with their teeth and didn’t have “good pussy” and I was put off enough not to consider him for a while.  Like, he’s criticizing THEM, what is he going to say about me??  I asked what “good pussy” entailed to him and he said having control of their muscles and knowing what to do with a dick.  Not very helpful. 

He went on to reminisce about how his ex-wife used to wake him up every morning with a blow job and how he missed that.  No one had been able to suck him to completion in a long time.  I’m thinking do I really even want to attempt this?  He sounds awfully critical.  Also, maybe not quite over the ex.

So after having made tentative plans with him, I cancelled and decided to wait for sex till I saw the Pilot over the weekend.  He knew I was going to see another man and asked some questions, acting a tad jealous.  I mentioned that we were swinging and let him know I was really looking for more casual sex right now.  Suddenly he was on board for that. :p

Anyhow, he was persistent.  He wished me a good time when I took off to see the Pilot and left me alone for a bit then reinitiated contact.  Finally, last night he invited me for dinner.  He said even if we didn’t hit it off in person, he’d be happy to buy me a nice meal and leave it at that. 

By now I was kind of horny again (it had been a few days since my rendezvous with the Pilot) and thinking that it was probably a good idea not to get too hung up on him.  I mean, I’m liking Mr. Pilot an awful lot and don’t want to get too attached.  For now, I’m NOT but I can see getting to that point if I don’t make an effort to fuck around.  Anyhow, I finally agreed.

The Pilot and I still text from time to time but it’s not constant and doesn’t have that “in a relationship” feel.  We have kind of checked in with each other each day but I’m still thinking more FWB.  At this point I am actually happy that we both have the freedom to do what we want without telling each other about it.  Having to report all my activities to the Professor caused some pressure and undue drama. 

The Pilot texted me when he got off work and we were talking about getting together again and having someone else take pictures. I sent him a few shots of the video screen that I took (like the one I posted yesterday 😉 ) and he wanted to post them to his swinger profile.  We flirted and chatted a bit and it dropped off shortly before my date, which worked out perfectly.  I would have felt guilty if he was still texting me, though there is really no need for it.

  I looked at his profile later (the pics are in a section where you can only see them if you are a paid member and he gives permission so I couldn’t see them anyway, lol) and saw that he was signed up to go to some swinger karaoke night last night too.  He may have but it doesn’t really matter to me, good for him because I was getting mine, lol.  I know he signs up for stuff he doesn’t go to sometimes too but in all honesty it doesn’t bother me a bit.

Speaking of the pics, I considered adding some to MY profile as well but decided that for the time being it would be best not to.  I know the Professor still looks at it sometimes and I’m not trying to rub it in.  Not that he hasn’t hurt me pretty badly, but I wouldn’t want him to do that to ME….so, not for now.

So anyhow, the Producer asked me to pick an “interesting” restaurant that was near me and had high quality food, so I picked a nice and fairly expensive, non-chain place that I have only been to once or twice before.  We ordered fruity Martinis and he got an expensive steak while I ordered a mid-priced pasta with bacon wrapped scallops and some sort of mushroom sauce.  It was very good. 

The conversation was alright.  Mediocre and a tad superficial but interesting enough.  He likes to name drop and I guess that goes with an industry such as the one he is involved in.  I really don’t follow a lot of popular culture so it’s just like yeah, whatever, lol. 

Afterwards he asked if I was wanting to continue on to a hotel and I said yes.  Hell, why not?  He said I know the area better so I picked the closest decent hotel which was a La Quinta.  It was actually nicer than some of the others I have been inside.  He got a suite with a hot tub and king bed.

When we arrived we talked for a few minutes and he said maybe we could relax in the hot tub.  He turned it on and got it going, expecting me to get undressed, so I stripped down to my bra and panties.  He was like “you are gonna have to get all the way undressed eventually” and had me lay on the bed while he pulled off my panties and went down on me.  It felt pretty good and he was fingering me a bit too.

Then he wanted a blow job.  I gave him one that lasted all of a couple of minutes before he exploded all over the place and on my mouth.  I don’t mind swallowing cum when I really like a guy but am not so much into it when I’m not and this guy hadn’t even kissed me.  He never did but I really didn’t want him to anyway, lol.  Kissing and swallowing cum are more intimate to me I guess. I swallowed the Prof’s cum a lot but I had feelings for him.

So much for it being a challenge to get him to cum with a bj.  He kept apologizing and saying he wasn’t expecting that, that it had been a long time since anyone had been able to make them cum with their mouth and he was surprised.  So we cleaned up a bit and decided to get in the hot tub.

We sat in there and chatted for a while.  He kept saying he’d really like to continue to see each other as friends and have a FWB situation.  I was still wondering if he was ever going to fuck me.  He asked what I thought of his cock.  Of course I was complimentary, lol.  It’s pretty thick but average length, maybe 6 inches.  He wouldn’t say how long it is, not that it really matters, haha.

He talked about how he wanted to take me places, like maybe concerts or amusement parks and just have fun together sometimes.  He said maybe I could visit his city.  I was still waiting to see if he’d recuperate enough for sex. 

 He said we could try and keep emotions out of it, that he’d had an issue a few months back where he was more emotionally involved than the woman and ended up getting hurt, even though it was originally his idea. We discussed that he’s never had kids and I told him I’m not on birth control.  He said he’d use a condom. 

Anyhow, we finally got out of the tub and he went down on me some more.  This time it was for much longer and much better.  I came and he said he loves eating pussy.  He put on the condom, complaining that it wasn’t a Magnum and he hoped it would work.  He wanted me to climb on and ride him but he went soft.  He blamed the condom and pulled it off, asking me to make him hard again.  So I blew him a few seconds longer, he got hard and turned around and went in without a condom!  I wasn’t expecting that but didn’t try to stop it at that point.

It felt pretty good and we soon got moved around into doggystyle where he pounded it really hard from the back.  At one point he slowed down and I was absolutely sopping wet and worried that he may have cum.  I don’t think so though because shortly after we stopped but he wanted sucked some more.  He again came on my mouth, trying to get me to swallow it but I kind of diverted it all. 

Anyhow, he kept saying he really wants to continue this so I don’t know.  It wasn’t FABULOUS but I did cum a couple of times and it could be alright for times when I’m not seeing someone else.  Guess Mr. Producer could be an occasional sidepiece, lol. I’d want to really push the condom issue though. He asked how often I slept with guys without a condom and I admitted to doing so without this weekend. He claims normally he wears one.  He texted me later that he had had a good time but haven’t heard from him since then, which is fine.  Don’t care to talk with him too much, so that works.

I had some mild guilt about the Pilot but it’s silly because he and I don’t have any kind of commitment thing going on.  I guess when I really like someone my natural inclination is to want to start shutting other men out. That would be stupid though because at this point it’s just a FWB thing and me doing that would cause me to get more emotional/jealous.  I really NEED to keep fucking other guys to keep my head on straight.  That’s my story and I’m sticking to it… 😉

Fucking on the First Date

Fucking on the First Date

This is a shot I took of the computer screen while I was watching the video the Pilot and I made on our first date. Normally I don’t post pics but I liked this one since you can’t really make out who we are. Who, not only fucks on the first date, but makes a video of it? Oh yeah…..;)

Someone’s been sleeping in MY bed…

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So tonight I got a text from the Professor.  It’s been 3 weeks since he dropped off the surprise donuts at my house “for the kids” (of course, right after I decided to burn bridges) and 6 weeks before that when we officially ended things.  Suddenly, 9 weeks later, he texts me:

“Just thought I would say hello and hope you and your kids are doing well”. 

Yeah.  Now you care?  This couldn’t POSSIBLY have something to do with knowing that I finally went out to a party without you, had a blast and am starting to really enjoy someone else.  It couldn’t be that I FINALLY am starting to get over you and move on and NOW you are having second thoughts, could it now? :p  It’s not that you don’t like someone else infringing upon “your” territory now is it?

Men always do this.  Always.  Without fail.  Every time.  They never really go away forever….not if you had any kind of relationship with them.  It’s like they just can’t stand to see another man have what was once theirs, even if they didn’t want to keep it for themselves!

  I knew he’d wait until I did all the work on finally getting over him to make his move, I even said so in my previous blog posts. You know it’s more than just wanting to check in on me and the kids, come on!  If he cared about that he’d have done it a long time ago, when I was hurting the most.

 I texted him back “Hi.  Yeah, we are doing great, thanks”.  He said “you are welcome.  Take care of yourself”.  Boring conversation and I left it at that but what do you wanna bet that isn’t the end of it?  Just wait….

 

 

Playing with the Pilot

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I’m still flying high with the pilot. So far he is awesome and a half!! Last night we attended a masquerade swinger party in the city near where he lives and had a blast!  That and I think we had sex with each other at least 7-8 times.

He wanted me to come up for the party so he offered to pay my gas and get a hotel that would be convenient for me and make it less of a drive.  That makes it sooo much easier for my broke ass, lol, so I was very thankful.  Plus he got us a very nice room at the Hampton with a king size bed that we made very good use of. 😉

The party we were attending had a masquerade theme and you were supposed to wear black.  Black shirts for the men, and either a black dress or lingerie for the women, plus a Venetian mask.  I decided to go with lingerie.  I sent a pic of myself in thisbodystocking to the Pilot earlier in the week and he asked if that was what I was going to wear.  I was like I can, should I?  And he said “Absolutely!!”  So we decided to go all out.  I wore that with little star shaped pasties to cover my nipples and a pair of panties that is basically just a red satiny triangle with black ribbon, making it into a g-string, underneath.  Topped it off with sparkly gold nail polish and black high heel, wedged platforms with a peekaboo toe and a bow at the bottom.  Oh and my mask…. mask

I was very pleased with how things were going prior to the party.  The Pilot says he has never taken a woman with him to a swinger party before but he was the one that brought up a discussion about our boundaries beforehand.  We decided that it would be fine to play with whoever either one of us was attracted to AT the party, and that we didn’t necessarily have to both play but that we would leave together no matter what.  If we played with anyone after the party it would have to be on mutual interest and agreement.

Just having that all decided in advance made me feel a lot more secure and ready for whatever might happen.  I really like that about the Pilot.  He is a planner in other ways too and always lets me know what the deal is with things like the hotel or meeting times enough ahead of time that I have plenty of chance to fit everything into my schedule and not stress.  As a generally really busy, single mom, anything that lets me relax a bit is a bonus.

He was really sweet about letting me know that he is in no rush for anything and if I am late or take a long time to get ready or whatever it is okay.  He has four kids of his own so I think he gets it and says rushing is never fun.  He got the hotel where I would only have to drive a little over 2 hours instead of 3 and would be able to shower and get freshened up and everything too after my trip, which I totally appreciated!

By the time I had dropped my children off with my ex, packed, grabbed a bite to eat and driven up to the hotel, it was after 9 pm.  He planned things out so he arrived right about the same time as me (his drive was like 45 min).  He hugged and kissed me and told me I looked great, even though the air conditioning in my van isn’t working and I was feeling a hot mess.

 HE looked especially hot, in a long sleeved black dress shirt and his head shaved.  He really is a good looking guy, like one you can’t help but steal glances at from time to time and be like “damn”, lol.  He’d asked me to pick up a mask for him when I was at the party store, which was no problem since it was like 99 cents for his, lol.  I’d sent pics of a few and he picked a basic black eye mask.  It looked good on him too. 😉

After checking into the hotel and into our room, we made out just a little bit before I was like I really need to start getting ready, lol.  He was like God, I want to fuck you now but go ahead, don’t worry about rushing and I will go fill the car up with gas and be back in a bit.  So I went ahead and took a shower.  The shower had a see through glass door and I was tempted to leave the door open a crack and tempt HIM to come in there but I didn’t because I knew it would make us really late, haha.  When he came back I could hear him out there cracking up laughing at some TV show, it was kinda cute.

So I got all dolled up and he was liking the outfit.  I put on a black tank top and short jean skirt over it to wear as we walked from the parking lot to the club.  He’d told me it’s in kind of a bad neighborhood, though the club itself is nice, and I didn’t want to be walking on the street like that, lol.

I’d seen the guest list on the swinger site prior so had some idea of what to expect.  This party, unlike the ones I’ve been to here, was a nice racial mix. There were probably an equal amount of black and interracial couples plus a handful of white couples and one or two Latino couples.  There were quite a few singles signed up ahead of time and it was full to the allotment of single males (I think 15).  This club also plays better music, hip hop and rnb, which I find easier to dance to.  Most everyone was in their 30’s-40’s with a couple of older couples.

The Pilot and I had discussed some beforehand about what we are each attracted to and basically decided that he likes women like me and I like guys like him (duh, lmao).  The idea was that we weren’t going to try and push each other into anything or take any for the team and would go for whoever we felt like fucking.  He’d also let me know that he wanted to fuck me in front of people while we were there because he gets off on it.  I was all for that one, since I’m a bit of an exhibitionist myself. 😉  I guess he pretty regularly fucks SOMEONE when he goes to this party too, which is held once a month and he says is his favorite.

As we were in the parking lot some women walked by and the Pilot was like uh-oh, I didn’t know that this one woman was going to be here.  She apparently has it bad for him and he says he doesn’t really feel the same though they have fucked twice, once at least at a party.  He says she just got divorced and has been asking him stuff like how he would feel about being a couple in the Lifestyle.  I asked if me being there was going to cause drama and he said no, but that he’d admitted to her that he was kind of looking to slow down with the swinger stuff but that he wasn’t meaning with HER. 

She was with a woman who had emailed me earlier and who later brought up the Professor!  I’d never met this woman before and she was quite heavy, so not the Prof’s type at all but apparently he had been talking to her about ME?  They didn’t even know each other because she didn’t remember his first name but said that he’d told her we weren’t talking now and that we’d gone to parties together in the past.  I was standing at the bar getting a drink later on when this woman approached me and said that they had been emailing and he was telling her that he thought I must be coming to the party with someone and probably wouldn’t be there alone.  Hmmm….

Wonder why he is digging for information from complete strangers??  He must have seen on my profile that I was attending.  I have noticed him looking at it a couple of times lately but you have to hit a button that redirects you to another page to see what events a person has signed up for.  Not sure why he cares what I am up to if he’s not interested in me himself.   WTF?  There was a guy I used to see a long time ago that would cockblock me at clubs, long after we broke up, and it reminds me a bit of that.  He’d wait till I went to the restroom or something and go tell the guy I had a boyfriend and cause trouble for me that way.  Men are nuts sometimes with their territorialism.

Anyhow, back to the Pilot.  On the way up the steps he is like oh, by the way, I don’t generally mess with other black men’s women unless they make it pretty clear that’s what they want.  Something about how the guys there kind of do that out of respect and that the white guys who go to the party are usually ones looking for BBC for their wives.  I didn’t give it a lot of thought at the time but afterwards I did notice that though there were quite a few black men there, they mostly treated me like they would if I’d shown up with the Pilot as my regular boyfriend and we weren’t at a swinger party, i.e., they were polite and friendly but did not hit on me at all other than one man where he and the Pilot were talking with me and his wife all together, and the host couple that the Pilot knows and has said the guy wants him to play with his wife sometime and he wanted to introduce me. Oh, and one guy when I was sitting alone for a minute. The white guys actually hit on me more, which is kind of backwards from how it usually is, but whatever, haha.

Anyhow, he paid for us to get in and unlimited drinks, which was $40 for him and $25 for me.  The bartender was this totally gorgeous black woman that I liked immediately and asked if she would hold my clothes after I stripped down to lingerie.  She was a sweetheart but according to the Pilot he doesn’t think she is a swinger.  I think he was lamenting that one, ha!

Most everyone had on masks and quite a few women were in lingerie, though mine might have been a little more risqué than most, lol.  I got lots of positive comments on it though. 😉  Like I said, I’m a bit of a show-off that way when I can get away with it.

This party had an interesting set up, that included several rooms, most of which had several black leather couches in them.  A couple rooms also had a disco ball and a stripper pole in the middle on a platform.  One had a massage table and there was a glory hole through one door.  Kind of a largish “glory hole” though.  It was almost the size of my head, haha. In the hallway, near the area that was being used as a bar, there were some trays of appetizers.

After showing me around a bit and sitting on a couch drinking and talking to a few people, the Pilot and I went in one of the rooms with a pole. He pulled me up to start dancing with him, even though no one else was yet.  We were having fun, he is a good dancer, and soon there were a few other couples on the floor too. 

A couple of drinks later I decided to get on the pole and try out some of the new tricks I’ve learned in my class. 😉  It was fun and we got to where he was dancing with me, like grinding on me and stuff. People were clapping for us and shortly after that they announced a pole dance contest but I was done and didn’t join, lol.  The girl who won was a (topless) black girl that knew how to hang upside down and do all kinda stuff on there that I’m not quite up to yet anyway, ha! It was cool though and they gave out a bunch of other prizes, I’m not sure all what for.  The Pilot won some His and Hers KY jelly, but I have no idea why and he was like “we won’t be needing this, haha” (I’m pretty much always wet and willing, lol). 

After all that he asked me if I wanted to suck his dick through the glory hole.  I said sure so he went into one room and I was on the other side.  He peeked through first and bent down to give me a kiss, so I knew for sure it was him, lmao.  I didn’t realize it, but while I was giving him his blow job an audience had accumulated.  He came down for another kiss and asked if I’d noticed all the people behind me?  Haha. 

Then he was like “turn around and back your ass up to the hole so I can fuck you”. So I did and he pulled my panties aside and we were fucking through the hole.  There were a handful of people watching and one woman said “I have never seen a glory hole used like THAT before”.  LMAO.  It was pretty hot.  When we were done people were actually CLAPPING, LMFAO.  He said that on the other side that one girl that likes him had come up behind him and was kind of “helping” him fuck me.  He thought she might have wanted to fuck him too and I said that would have been fine but he said he didn’t want to.

He came over to my side and some of the older, white guys that had been watching wanted him to let their wives give him a blow job.  They were concerned that it might not be okay with me but I said it was fine and the Pilot obligingly unzipped his pants.  One of the husbands called the Pilot the Jolly Green Giant, and it was kind of like, WTF, but the Pilot was good natured about it. They invited me to come sit between the two women, who seemed super concerned that I might be bothered, but I wasn’t.  At some point I joined in with the blow job but just for a little bit.  When one of the husbands started hinting that he wanted the Pilot to fuck his wife, he pulled me up and kind of blew the guy off.  He said he doesn’t like it when guys get pushy like that and it’s clearly the guy wanting him to do stuff more so than the woman being interested.

We ended up going back into one of the pole rooms where a few couples were making out.  He had me suck his cock a little more then climb up on his lap, facing him on the couch, and ride him.  He later said he had a good view of the couple behind us fucking while we were doing our thing.  I just noticed a woman watching from the doorway and occasional people stopping by, lol.  We danced a little more and he pulled my panties aside and started licking me while I was backed up against the pole in the middle of the room. 

He never came at the party, but did at least 5 times after we got back to the hotel, maybe 6, when it was just the two of us.  😉  On our way out we stopped to talk to people and the woman that likes him and the bigger woman were there and she was obviously wanting to talk to him. When we got back to the car, where we had left our phones, he showed me that she had texted him “I want to suck your dick” while we were in there.  Oops.  She again texted him around 3 am, while he and I were busy fucking and he didn’t see it until late the next morning.  I kinda felt bad for the girl. 

There seem to be a couple of women like that who are into him and he’s not seeming that interested.  Some others had wanted him to go to some mud tournament deal they had going on today too but he was at the hotel with me.  I probably need to watch out that I never become “that girl”. :p  For now though, he seems pretty into me and even wants to drive all the way here again soon.  Still trying to keep things at FWB level for now and so far so good on my end.  I can see why women like him though!

The only little red flag that has popped up is that he has told me he was divorced 4 years ago and at first was saying he’d been in the Lifestyle about 4 years.  Then he brought up something that made it sound like it had been a lot longer so I asked again how long ago he got into swinging and he says he first did it about 10 years ago but stopped when he was deployed.  Well, he also mentioned before that his ex- wife wasn’t into swinging at all or anything like that, so presumably it was done behind her back.  Hmmm… Not that I’m an example of a shining beacon of faithfulness or anything, I did have an affair myself.

Back at the hotel we fucked and fucked, lol.  It was very good and we’d finish and I’d think he wanted to sleep but then he’d want to fuck again.  We finally fell asleep sometime after 4. He woke me up the same way he did last time, sticking his dick in me from behind, at around 7 am.  After a couple rounds I got a shower and we went down to enjoy the hotel breakfast.

Then back to the room for more sex.  And more.  I was amazed at how much he came after that much fucking, lmao.  I was a little worried once that he may have cum inside me because we weren’t using a condom and he acted similarly to how he does when he’s about to cum then stopped for a little bit and started kissing me while he was still inside. IDK, but I think I’m past the fertile time of the month anyway so not too concerned.  Years of natural family planning has me still paying attention to that.

Toward the end a maid actually came and knocked on the door while we were in the middle of it all and he was like “um, could you come back later?”  We were surprised she couldn’t hear what we were up to as I was not being especially quiet.  He’d been teasing me before that if I kept saying “oh my God” people were gonna think we were in there having church! 😉

So anyhow we got back at it and he pulls me over the side of the bed and was doing me from behind with my hands pinned down under his and I came really hard, then he just kept going because HE was about to cum, so I got kind of extra loud that time.  We stop, he came all over my back, then goes to get a towel to wipe it up and after a pause we hear the vacuum start in the room next door.  LMAO.  It was pretty clear the maids had been listening that time, because they waited until AFTER we are done with all that noise to turn on the vacuum cleaner.  We were cracking up.

He was even like “now you have material for your blog”.  He knows I write one and I’ve mentioned it has some erotic content but not elaborated.  I think he’s thinking I write erotic stories.  Haha… He’s brought it up before and I think enjoys the idea of being blog fodder.  If only he knew…;)

Meeting the Pilot

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I just got back from a sleepover with the Pilot and WOW!  First of all, he is way better looking in person than in his pictures.  He’s like…smoking hot! It’s funny because he did look like his pics, but they made him seem sort of “soft” whereas in person he’s really a very good looking guy with chiseled features.  He did tell me he doesn’t take that great of pictures and they WERE kind of dark and he was smiling. Maybe they made his face look chubbier or something.  Actually he has a great body and muscular arms and if I had to pick a celebrity that kinda reminds me of him it would be Dwayne “the Rock” Johnson, lol.  He’s black but lighter skinned and mixed with some other things, like Italian and Haitian and Creole and even some British.

We met in the lobby of the hotel where he was staying.  I got there before he came downstairs and was sitting on the couch with that Prince song running through my head. “Knew a little girl named Nikki, I guess you could say she was a sex fiend.  Met her in the hotel lobby masturbating with a magazine”…. But I wasn’t masturbating because, well, the people at the front desk were right there and they might not have liked that too well ;). 

Anyhow, I had on a cute little sundress and 4 inch, silver platform heels.  He was taller than me, even with them on and greeted me with a hug, saying he was so glad I agreed to meet him and that he thought I was especially gorgeous in person.  He kept telling me throughout the night “you are a really good looking lady”, haha. According to him, I look even better than in my pictures.  I hear that a lot so hopefully its true, lol.

He went to get his car and drove up to meet me in a very nice black Cadillac with dark tinted windows.  The restaurant he chose was a Hibachi style Japanese steak house.  It was packed, with a long wait, so we sat at the bar and he got us white wine and an appetizer.  We had great conversation and by the time we were seated at the table we were pretty much all over each other.  He said the people probably thought we were newlyweds by the way we were acting, all giggly and flirty. 

I’m really pretty impressed with this guy.  He’s been all over the world and has all sorts of interesting stories to tell and I just find him fascinating.  He’s a Lt. Colonel in the Army and works an interesting job but plans to retire in a year and already has something even better lined up for the future.  You can tell he has a lot of money but he’s not a snob and is very down to earth and charming and funny.  His dad was a pastor so he finds it really interesting that my ex was in ministry and we were talking about that kind of stuff too.  He seemed to like talking with me as well and said it’s not often he comes across a woman who is an intelligent conversationalist.  Yeah, that may be suspect, but in any case I liked him.

SO, after a nice meal we headed back to the hotel.  He brought out some more wine that he had chilling in the mini fridge and we drank and talked some more before starting to make out.  Our first kiss definitely had chemistry and he was like “wow, you are a really great kisser”.  We kept making out and eventually the clothes came off.  His cock was very nice sized and probably somewhere around the 8 ½ -9 inches he promised. 

We started having sex around 9 o’clock and didn’t take a real break until around 1:30 am.  He went down on me, I gave him blowjobs, we rimmed each other, you name it, and some of it was videotaped. I think I came about 7 times before he did.  He seemed to prefer the slower, more gentle, sex a lot of the time but then he’d get fast and hard before making me cum and the same for when he did.  During sex  he was telling me he suspects he is going to be putting a lot of miles on his car coming to see me (he lives 3 hours away, not far from my hometown). 

After that first round of sex we collapsed in each other’s arms for a bit before he decided he was hungry again and we should go grab something to eat.  So I did a little touching up of my just-been-laid, wild and crazy hair and lipstick and we went to the Steak n’ Shake across the street from the hotel.  I got a milkshake and fries and he ordered the same with a burger.  We chatted for an hour or so before heading back for more sex.

This time we fucked until after 3 am and then finally fell asleep.  He kept commenting that my Zumba classes must keep me really on my toes because I can just go and go.  We cuddled and kissed a lot but I finally rolled over on my side to sleep and woke up at 6:45 to him poking his dick around from behind,about to enter me again.  After a couple of morning rounds he finally came all over me and said he thought I was going to have him worn out for a good week. 

We took turns showering and lay in bed and talked for a bit before heading down to enjoy the hotel’s complimentary breakfast.  After that we packed up our things and he walked me to my vehicle to say goodbye.  He keeps saying he wants to see me again and we still have plans to attend a swinger party up his way soon.  He has offered to pay my gas and get a hotel for us to stay at nearby the party.  I suspect it will be a lot of fun.

I’ve got to be careful with this one because I can see how I could easily fall for him.  Due to distance and stuff that wouldn’t be very practical, and I’m not really sure what he is looking for.  On one hand he hinted several times toward wanting something more relationship like but then he also acceded that the distance could be an issue and told me that if he were to get emotionally involved he’s not sure he could share because he thinks he would get jealous and he doesn’t do drama.  So for now, I am going to treat it more like a fwb thing. 

He did also say there was another single girl that he sees sometimes that heard he was going to the party with me and thought she might like to come sometime too.  From the way he put it I suspect he is thinking “threesome” (what guy isn’t? Haha).  She’s not coming along to the party we are going to though.  Then there is this married lady he was telling me about whose husband is in Afghanistan and he says he is worried that she is getting too emotionally attached to him and he doesn’t know what to do.  I guess she had a double mastectomy and is lonely and wanting someone to talk to now and she is someone he’d slept with before and he says he feels guilty putting her off, or something like that.  In any case, as long as I’m thinking of him more as a fwb I don’t have to worry so much about all that stuff, so trying to keep my head there.

I’d be lying if I said this helped me completely get over the Professor.  I’m still hurting and there were a couple times when he crossed my mind last night.  In fact at one point when I was lying there with the Pilot in his arms while he slept, I actually shed tears.  I do feel better though and I kind of just want his memory to go away.  The Pilot is good in bed and we have some chemistry but no, it’s not comparable to the Prof in that regard.  It’s so hard for me to understand how the Professor could throw that away, especially when he had commented on how great the sex and chemistry between us was himself. 

I really just don’t get it.  Why would you “break up” with someone if you really didn’t have to, because both of you could continue to fuck other people all you wanted anyway?  He claimed to think I wanted a relationship with him but it’s not like I wanted to marry him or anything.  I think he thought I wanted a lot more than I did. It all seems so…stupid!  Or more likely, it’s the rejection talking.  It’s killing me. 😦  Oh well.  Glad to be moving forward anyhow. 

Feeling the fuck buddy thing

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The closest thing I’ve had to sex in a month was yesterday and I just sucked my fuck buddy off.  Normally I would want more than that but circumstances kept me from actually having sex with him.  It was fun though and I was willing to do it because he’s really the only guy I feel like I can count on at the moment. 

I am on my period and was supposed to get a Brazilian wax but it had to be postponed due to it starting early.  Meanwhile, I can’t shave, so I feel all gross and disgusting, lol.  I guess years of removing all the hair has just made it seem weird to have any.  I can’t wait to get it all removed, even though I know it’s probably gonna be painful.  I got to experience some of that while having my underarms waxed the other day.  Ouch!!  Love the results though, definitely something I could keep doing!  They are all smooth and perfect, despite still being a tad sore.

Fuck Buddy was wanting to look at and touch my boobs while I sucked his cock, so I let him pull them out but when he asked to lift up my skirt and look at my ass I was like um, no, haha. He knew what time of the month it was but didn’t want to explain the shaving thing until afterwards and thankfully it was a skirt with shorts sewn underneath, lol.  Then he started talking about the possibility of fucking me in the ass (with his thick, 9 inch cock).  My mouth was full but I’m sure the expression in my eyes was “oh hell no!”  I just shook my head and was like “mmmhhmmh.”  Poor guy. 

Despite my reluctance to engage in anything other than sucking his dick, he came fairly hard and easily and into my mouth.  It’s been awhile since I sucked a guy to completion, due to the fact that I usually want to fuck, so it was fun and low pressure.  He happened to be in town visiting a friend, so we were at his house in a bedroom, with him lying on the bed.  I met some guy that was sitting on the couch beforehand but he didn’t say much, lmao.

We talked for a little bit before and after but not a lot because I had errands to run.  I told him the Professor and I are no longer seeing each other and he was surprised and asked why but I sort of blew off the question, saying it just didn’t work out.  He said his last sexual encounter was on Memorial Day, some couple off the swinger site and the woman was older but had a good body. 

When I started to leave he pulled me back for a hug, reminding me how thankful I am for him at the moment.  He’s always sweet and never disrespectful, despite us not having an emotional thing.  He always looks and smells great, has a really nice body, is always up for sex, is great in bed, doesn’t pry if I don’t want to talk about something and returns texts promptly.  No drama, no fuss and I never have to worry about being lied to.  Best of all, he doesn’t lead me on and is pretty straightforward about what he wants.

I guess you never know but I don’t get the feeling he is going to run off and abandon me any time soon.  Even if something doesn’t work out or I am too busy to get together, he’s cool with it and up for meeting again the next time.  I like him a lot and enjoy talking with him but we’ve been seeing each other once or twice a month for a year and still no sign of emotional attachment on either end.  It’s nice to have someone to fall back on like that. I guess that’s why I don’t mind sucking his dick with nothing in return, lol.

When I think of the Professor I am still so emotionally hurt.  I’m not sure I could ever sleep with him again.  Those feelings of abandonment and pain just override any and all memories of the sex to the point where it’s not even appealing anymore.  I still don’t really understand his sudden switch in attitude when all I wanted from him was reassurance that everything would be okay.  I don’t understand how he could go from seemingly caring so much about me to pulling a disappearing act during the time I needed him most.  It just makes me feel so betrayed and confused.

I keep trying to remind myself that I’ve been through worse in the past but it doesn’t really help.  I guess I thought more highly of him than I should have, put him up on a pedestal thinking he was this great guy.  Him bringing by donuts didn’t make it any better and just leaves me still wondering wtf he is thinking?

 A couple days after that he was looking at my profile on the swinger site again.  At first I resisted the temptation to look back, but after several hours I finally took a peek.  Big mistake.  He’d been validated by yet another woman he’d obviously slept with.  It’s almost as though he did that just because he WANTED me to look and see, like he’s bragging.  I wouldn’t put that past him at all but I don’t understand the need to rub it in when I’m already obviously feeling bad.  😦

It’s been a week since the donut drop though and that little profile glance is the last I’ve heard from him.  Maybe now I can manage to put him out of my mind again.  I did notice though, that each time he has been validated by someone new, it has been someone that I have noticed looking at my profile shortly beforehand.  He must be mentioning me or talking to them about me.  I wonder what he’s saying?  Is he bragging that he slept with me or saying something bad?  He’s shown me the profiles of people of some of the women he slept with on different occasions so maybe that’s all it is, I hope.

The Pilot and I are still in regular phone contact.  He wanted to hear my voice and has called a couple of times.  I liked his voice on the phone and that is always a good thing.  I have a thing for a man’s voice, whether it’s talking to me during sex, or singing or just turning me on over the phone.  It’s a wonder I’m not more into phone sex, lol.  He says people sometimes tell him he sounds white over the phone and maybe a little but I could tell he’s not. He sounds sexy.

We’ve been texting fairly often and he still seems pretty interested.  He went to a Lifestyle party last night but said it was kinda boring.  I don’t ask him too much about if he’s been having sex and I didn’t mention the fuck buddy.  Maybe it’s better not to get too detailed about stuff like that, if we know each other has sex with other people isn’t that enough?  Seems like less of a recipe for drama.

He claims not to be a big drinker but seems like every night he is having a drink.  Has me a bit curious about how much that actually is though I suppose if it doesn’t affect him it’s not a huge deal.  That and  he’s pulled a disappearing act a couple of nights though he always texts me eventually.  I’m sure he’s probably having sex or something but he doesn’t outright say so. 

One of the nights, afterwards, he told me that he went to some woman’s house to talk to her 17 year olds about flying and joining the military.  Then he adds that her husband is in Afghanistan and she had a double mastectomy (some time back) and they are friends and he wants to be there to support her since her husband is not. Hmmmm…   I guess I’m on the lookout to make sure I’m not getting involved with anyone who is already deeply emotionally involved with someone else and that one made me wonder.

 Maybe better to continue to keep my distance.  I still want to have sex with him though!  Just don’t want to fall for any tricks or manipulations.  He’s making it seem like he’s soooo into me now but stuff with the Prof has left me kind of raw and leery.  I don’t know, I’m sorta feeling like the whole relationship thing is overrated and I don’t want to let anyone in or too close.  I hope it at least works out though where we get to go to this party together soon.  Looking forward to that!